LIFE LATELY: Walwal WORK DAYS and Realizations on this new Career

Happy are those who are always “kapoy” for they have jobs to sustain their “needs” and satisfy their “wants”.

A typical Wednesday in my line of work and  within my territory is a slow day. Normally, doctors wouldn’t hold consultations in their clinics as Wednesdays seem to be their rest days, hence, we wouldn’t be as busy as we are on regular days.

I dreaded Wednesdays because I don’t like NOT doing anything on a regular working day while everyone else had “out-towns” itineraries. Thankfully, Wednesday this week was different. I had a very busy itinerary and I was determined to accomplish everything by sweat and by faith!

In the morning, I had to pick up an important document in a post grad convention in a hospital nearby. Happy I got to the hospital via a multicab! Saved me some moolah!

Didn’t get the document though, but got it yesterday, so consider that done!

Funny coz that same day was my first time to be asked by a security personnel for some “goods” a.k.a. samples. Good thing, I always bring our handy dandy, paracetamol ng bayan!

I then took a cab to my designated hospital for the day. Got there early enough to cover 4 of my doctors that I almost never met this cycle. So that’s another tick mark on my list!

My senior counterparts and I didn’t have breakfast so the three of us met up with another senior counterpart in a nearby mall. Had our favorite sisig before going on to our respective hospitals in the afternoon.

Wednesdays are also perfect for visiting the departments to cover residents as they also help in prescribing our medications. The department I was visiting for the day was transferred to their new office which was unbelievably hard to find with people having no clue at all where it really was. I almost gave up thinking that I was being punk’d by everyone including the information personnel, although I felt their sincerity to really help me out. Good thing I got there in time to cover 3 senior residents!! So that’s another task done for the day!

I would’ve covered another set of doctors in the Orthopedic Center, but it was almost 5 and I had to run to the other side of the city to pay for the service of one of my doctors, which turned out to be another challenge for me as the cab driver doesn’t know where exactly the car service office was. I had to coordinate with their point person and google maps and my driver to find where it was! And voila! I did!

Got there in time to have a quick chat with their sales personnel which happened to be quite enjoyable and paid for the service! Met another person to establish a good relationship with as we always use their services!

Before I knew it, I was commuting back to the hospital to see if there were any more doctors to visit. Good thing, the odds were definitely in my favor that day as I finally had the opportunity to see the doctor I was chasing for days! Got my document for product inclusion signed and that’s definitely another BIG TASK done on my list of things to do!

My senior counterpart also got there in time as she needed this particular doctor as well!

After all that was done, she and I went to Casino Español to prepare stuff and our booths for the Pulmo convention for the next 2 days. We didn’t expect to be stuck in a meeting with the organizers and other reps from other Pharma companies that night, but we had free dinner, so I couldn’t complain!

The next day, I had even more things to do. Plus I got to visit my other 2 hospitals and got to cover 3 of my doctors, one of whom I got to talk to longer than usual as she was transferring to her new clinic.

I had to run back to my main hospital as they close at 7pm and wouldn’t let reps in after closing time. Took a cab and got back in time to buy me some dinner and got in by 7pm!

It was unusually dark because of the rotating electricity shortage(s) (or what not), but I had to meet 1 doctor whom I had previous commitments that I had to settle so the dark couldn’t scare me away! I was so dayummm determined!

Before I got in the hospital premises, I asked the guard about the electricity problems and it took, he was asking me for this special med that I was handling. He needed it for better performance (if you know what I mean!)

When I got in the medical arts building, the lights went on as if an angel (ehem ehem) came down from the heavens. JK!

I was really feeling lucky though, not just because the lights went back (to think that they waited an hour for it to be fixed), but also because this doctor who almost always finishes her consultations very late in the evening had only 2 more patients a few minutes before 7 that night. Plus, this other doctor whom we find hard to cover also was ready to accommodate reps that exact same time. Got to cover them both!

Just when I thought that that night was over, I went wandering into the abandoned annex building wishing that this doctor I originally needed to talk to that night was still there. True enough, she was still there! I was able to settle this little conflict we had with the commitments I had with her.

At the end of that night, I was feeling ACCOMPLISHED as I got almost everything I needed done, done!

I didn’t feel as tired as I do on normal days because I did so many things I never thought I could do alone.

4 months into this job, I never thought I would be able to do things I’m doing now.

I just realized that:

  1. In 4 months that I’ve been here in Cebu, I’ve met more people than I have in the past year.
  2. I’m slowly getting out of my shell and gradually feeling more comfortable doing it, (who would’ve thought I could do a product presentation with our bosses and all of our counterparts there not to mention about 30 residents, let alone host an equally big event with even more bigger bosses!) which brings me to…
  3. Me being comfortable in approaching people, to talk business or just to have a quick chat.
  4. I can live on taking cabs for now (and I enjoy chatting with chatty drivers when they realize I’m Tagalog), but I would really like it if my car gets here, say next week maybe? haha
  5. I’m slowly getting familiar with the streets around the city of Cebu and how to get to places I need to know for this job, which is a big help for when my car arrives.
  6. I am getting more independent by the minute. I hate owing people so much that I try as much as I can to do things on my own, even if it means spending more on my commute, walking very late at night or risking my life riding habal habals to look for computer shops.
  7. At the end of the day, after talking to so many people, I still want to be back in my shell, be alone and have that quality time with God, me-self and to do things I love doing like my ARTSY FARTSY stuff, photography and of course, writing! Yaaayyy I got to post 1 more entry into this not so personal diary of mine!

Maybe I could write more on my current life as an independent, lost girl next time!

Bye for now! Got to work a little on a rainy Saturday, but God is good for He takes care of all of us and always has good timing! He always saves me especially in times that I get in trouble and when I need Him the most! He is sooooo good, don’t you think?

Leaving you with one of my favorite Golden Hour Photos for more good vibes on a cool, rainy weekend!

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Taken in Pagudpud, Ilocos Norte! Camera: Canon FTb, Film: my favorite, YKL 100

Since I’m on a high feeling all the good vibes this freakin’ weekend, I just got off the phone with my familyyyy all the way from Manilaaaa and they are on the way to QUIAPO and BANAWE to get my car seat covers done!!!! I’m so excited!!!!!!!

Since we’re also on the topic, of good vibes, I mean, I’M FINALLY SEEING MY FAMILY AGAIN coz it’s the longggg awaited, LONG WEEKEND!!!!!! YAHOOOOO!!!!!!

CURRENTLY SINGING MY LUNGS OUT (and dancing to Toploader‘s “DANCING IN THE MOONLIGHT“) coz my roommate went home to Tacloban for the weekend! Can dance in my underwear the whole weekend! Chos!

Love lots,

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Screwball

I did it! I screwed my life over again.

Earlier today, as I was lugging 2 boxes of promotional materials down four flights of stairs from our apartment, I was thinking, is this what God wants me to do in life? Is this the life I’ve chosen?

Funny how I always get these thoughts clouding my mind whenever I am alone on a stairway. Could that be any more dramatic?

I mean, if I were to choose, I would always go for getting surprise-attacked by a bunch of zombies on a dark fire exit rather than having any of these depressing thoughts.

Well anyway, I’m here. This is the life that was laid out for me. So in between waking up in the middle of the night and tossing and turning in bed, I pray that I get to live this life the way I want to and the way God has planned.

Just needed to let out some of these thoughts in my head because they’re getting way out of hand. There’s a lot more coming, but I’d rather keep these rants short.

I’m so tired of screwing up. God please help me get to where I need to be.

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This Cray Cray Life

I’m doing a quick post because my brother and his girlfriend are going to pick me up in an hour or so for dinner.

Today has been quite a relief because I have been meaning to spend time alone after a long week of meetings, promotional work, flights to Manila and back here in Cebu in a span of 36-39 hours, training, catching up, etc.

In short, it was quite a long and tiring week which is why I’ve been looking forward to this weekend because all the other ones are jam-packed with summer activities.

I can’t wrap my head around the fact that my life is now a whirlwind of socializing events and activities. I’m not even sure I know what I’m doing, but I’m trying not to resist the current and just go with the flow. After all, YOLO. Haha. Yes, it’s funny that I still live by that mantra. Can’t blame me. It is true, after all.

Quick update:

For starters, I now live in the middle of busy Cebu! Yeeees! Maayong adlaw, buntag, hapon, gabii sa inyong tanan, wherever you are in the world! I’ve been here for about 3 weeks, or so. I’m still adjusting to this drastic change in my life, but I’m getting by.

I’m living with my former co-trainee and now colleague in a 2-bedroom unit in an area peppered with a bunch of our other colleagues.

Fortunately, I have had a chance to see the beauty of Cebu’s wonders in the form of Moalboal beach (which we visited before), Mantayupan falls and the beauty of the north in Tabogon, Cebu. All thanks to my brother and his girlfriend who have been nothing but supportive and helpful just as the rest of our colleagues. Unfortunately, as expected, I am now tanner than I’ve ever been, but I love it! I’ve always wanted to get tan and dirty. What?

Kidding aside, our “tour guides” also took us around incredible spots such as the Temple of Leah and Sirao Peak.

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taken from the Temple of Leah

There you go! I’ve been wanting to write after soooo long, but my job has swallowed me whole, I couldn’t find time to pour my heart out as I normally do. I’m really grateful to God, He’s given me time to breathe and relax after those long nights of drinking and working over time. I needed and longed for this “me time” away from the crazy world I jumped into.

Wishing for more days like this! Thank You, Lord! 🙂

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Life Lately / 12

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Gone were the days when I could write as often and as much as I can. At the moment, I am squeezing this teeny tiny time to write not because I have something spectacularly interesting to say, but only because my hands are itching to!

I used to always have all the time in the world to do whatever I want and I missed that since there is only so little that I could do with the free time I have off work (a.k.a. training). I couldn’t afford to slack nor to sleep longer than 4 hours, not even to go online  (yeah well not totally true), but just the same, I couldn’t do most of what a couch potato me has been doing for most of the time last year. I don’t even have the time to check my emails.

Today, all I want is time to relax, yet every time I think of getting a quick nap, I panic at the possibility that I could sleep through most of the day, therefore wasting time I should have spared for studying.

For this weekend, my goal is to completely memorize all 14 drugs in our division’s medication portfolio including their marketing communication and FAQ’s for our revalida on Wednesday.

I’m having doubts I can smoothly pass that test, but what the heck, I have something more to show them and I’m going to do what it takes to do that. Or not.

Lately, I’ve been having second thoughts, hearing mentors subtly and indirectly point out reasons why “I” cannot or should not go through with the training. I feel like I have made them lose their confidence in me and so they are somehow trying to discourage me by saying things such as “you have impressed no one with your awkwardness and dulling brain, therefore someone has been forced to take you instead of the other way around.” and “You have this weekend to think if this is the right job for you. You may back out if you don’t feel like being in this line of work and we won’t take it against you.” while looking directly at me.

Harsh. I know, but like what one of them also said, they might be actually doing me a favor.

I don’t think I can get those words out of my mind, nevertheless, I’m still determined to continue, (thanks to the encouraging words of my friend, Jan). I just want to believe in the fact that I am still here because God allowed for it to happen, this is where He led me to, where I should really be as I have prayed for ever so deeply; and so I trust that this is where He wants me to be.

I’m not happy with my performance as well, but with God’s grace, I hope I could do so much better especially on the final tests. I want this underdog to emerge a winner all for the glory of Him.

This is just one of the mountains I have yet to conquer. All for the glory of God!

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“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” – John 16:33

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Trip Down Memory Lane | Resignation

In December of 2015, I made up my mind to finally quit my job in an Australian BPO company. No one in my family knew, but I told my friends in the office and my immediate supervisor whom I have grown close with.

Looking back, I knew I almost had the perfect job. It had a great basic pay. Their policies aren’t as strict as those of the bigger companies in the same industry. We were catering to Aussies so with the little time difference between AU and RP, our schedule was also very favorable. Office location was along ADB avenue, so the commute was very easy for me, not to mention that we were very near 3 of the major malls in the metro. People were nice and accommodating. Our supervisors were all very helpful. We had the perks of a typical BPO workplace. What more could I have asked for, right?

Then again, I grew tired of a lot of things. There was a major factor which I can only keep to myself. Then there were reasons that in a sense helped me think things through and then eventually helped me reach a final decision.

First, there were the changes that the management have  constantly implemented. They are a very young company and I get that they have to build new strategies every now and then, but those changes drastically increased over time and affected not only their employees, but a lot of their clients as well. We saw how their company’s own clients took advantage of one another to avoid the burden of the said changes. Plus, they also made changes internally including some employee benefits that were one of the major reasons why I took the job in the first place.

Changes were also made with our schedules so my little group in the office was broken apart, at least in terms of having lunch together and all. Not to sound such a baby, but I admit I was a little clingy and I loved talking to and bonding over food with them. Made the already stressful work easier. Although that didn’t last long as I unexpectedly found new people to have lunch with, including my supervisor who has become a friend too.

Second, I knew that when I took that job, it was only going to be temporary. I had a plan to save up for a camera and workshops so I could go on in becoming the next America’s Top Photographer. Charrr! Seriously though, that was the plan all along, ever since I quit my job in the hospital. Unfortunately, I didn’t save enough as I splurged on my film photography hobby and on food. Yes, FOOD! I still couldn’t figure out why, but I didn’t have any savings at all.

Third, I was getting tired of talking to irate customers, which grew in number along with the changes that the company implemented. There even came a time that we honestly didn’t want to take the calls anymore because the customers were getting so impatient and rude that it became traumatic for me (callcenter virgin). And to think that Aussies are the most polite customers.

Lastly, one of my office friends offered me a home-based job and even though it wasn’t a sure thing, I took the risk, thinking that it was a sign for me to finally quit my job. So I quit when I got back from the holidays last year.

I finally told my parents a few days before my last day at work. My mother was surprised, but I knew I had to make that decision on my own. I knew I couldn’t tell them without a back up plan, so I told them I wanted to work full-time from home.

I applied for the home-based job, waited for 3 months for the whole application process to finish only to be turned down in the end. To be honest, I was led on to believe that I will get the job. My friend’s friend who referred me had to tell me that I had been an unfortunate victim of their manager’s power trip to console me, but I had to pick myself up as well and went back job hunting. To no avail, I failed to find a job, because I was either extremely picky or unqualified.

That, along with my grandmother’s death and break up with the ex, all happening simultaneously were 3 of the most devastating things that happened to me last year. Those almost pushed me over the edge and I didn’t know where else to go. My office friends were half-kidding that I take my job back, but thanks to them and their insane updates on even bigger changes in the company, I knew I wasn’t going back.

So there I was, devastated, heartbroken and broke. I didn’t know where else to go but to Him.

Then soon, I realized, working in the said company wasn’t all bad. I had really amazing supervisors and trainers that were not only very patient and helpful but kind people as well. I also got to work with colleagues that were very welcoming, extremely funny and equally helpful. Lastly, I met friends I never even thought I’d be friends with. They made me laugh, they chatted with me during and outside work, they taught me so much about life and they bonded with me over FOOD! (Have I not emphasized that enough? LOL). They all made my experience in a BPO company worthwhile and they helped me adjust easier with all their horror stories from their previous BPO companies and tips in providing great customer service.

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photos grabbed from Xuxa’s IG account!

Also, everyone was telling me I was very lucky to have worked for that company as it wasn’t the typical contact center with the strict KPIs, and all that shizzz I’m glad I never experienced.

Looking back, I didn’t think I’d reach such a low point in my life. I didn’t know I could go that low. I’m pretty sure it was my worst year, but like I said, it definitely was my best as well. It was a real roller coaster ride for me with all the ups and downs, but I’m glad that not once did I feel disregarded by God. I’m just glad that He was there with me all along. He made sure that it wasn’t going to be all bad for me so I’m even more sure now that He will hold my hand through the good and the bad times, in all the days ahead.

 

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TRIP DOWN MEMORY LANE: I’m traveling back in time to write about those 2016 moments that I haven’t had time to in the past year. This is mainly for my own benefit as this blog has been my personal diary for the past 5 years. If you happen to have a chance to share in the joy or to empathize with me, I will be more than grateful as life is better lived when shared. Have a great 2017! Cheers!