Life Lately / 11

IΒ wasn’t going to say something until maybe after the training is over and done with. It’s not like I’m scared of jinxing anything now, because, you know, I’m YOLO-ing all over again plus, I’m surrendering it all to the Big Guy up there, but I guess I just really can’t find the time at the moment to actually lay it all out and spill the deets on this great, big turn my life has taken.

So I’m back in collegeΒ or at least it feels like it, except that this time, we’re taking a crash course on what some of us have studied for a semester or two all in just about 2 weeks or so. For the past weeks, my co-trainees and I have been getting about 3-4 hours of sleep on a daily basis to pull off the pre-tests, post tests, learning checks and discussions also on a daily basis. I thought I was done with this stuff when I graduated 5 years ago, but I guess that was just a pretty dream that I now have to put behind me.

So that pretty sums up the last 2 weeks, not to mention the added physical training aka walking in heels with a big bag of weights in tow everywhere we go, which is actually a mental training in disguise (coz’ it’s all in the mind and when there’s no pain, none will be gained, ain’t that right?).

Had I known I was in for a treat like this, I would have taken off to outer space or as far as I could in seconds! Juuuuust kidding! So there, so far, I failed 1 exam which bums me out big time because I know for a fact that I have written enough info on those essays (YES, YOU READ IT RIGHT, ESSAYS) to get me at least a passing rate, but I didn’t. Plus, I was trying hard to keep my grades up, now that 75 is just going to pull down my first 2 90+ test grades. That sucks and to think that I’ve never been thisΒ grade conscious in my life!

I knew though that this wasn’t going to be easy so I had to reevaluate my self, my life and my faith in order to get going. I know that there would always be tough days, days when all I could do is cry and pray hopelessly and times when I could just do this all day long:

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But I also know and believe that there’d be days when I could genuinely feel as if I’m not constipated and heavy at all! LOL! I’ll be light as a feather and I could leap into the heavens, saying I survived!

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Until then, I’m going to have to take studying even more seriously. Gone are the days when I could just slack off, add more weight to my belly and watch movies and blog all day.

Though I have to say, I missed writing a lot. I missed this! I still have a long way to go on my Trip Down Memory Lane series, but hopefully, I could squeeze in time to complete that by midyear.

That’s it for now! I’ll leave you be!

P.S. I made a little somethin’ somethin’! It’s one of my stress busters! Thank God for Art and Photography!

 

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food trip!

My duty as a nurse trainee in the hospital has been stressing me out lately. Although it’s quite fun (thanks to friendly senior staff nurses) and rewarding at times, I still don’t get enough time to unwind especially since the 8-hour shifts make me want to sleep in bed for the remaining 16 hours or less.

Thanks to my friends for the sooooper rare/occasional gimiks we have when time permits and to my family for the Sunday bonding time and to my boyfriend who puts in much effort in order for us to spend some sneaky, quality time together. And what better way to spend time with your loved ones other than going on food trips?

The last time my boyfriend and I went out, he accompanied me to my interview in another hospital (which touched me to the bones, btw! kakilig!), but the day before that, we went out too and tried this small restaurant in CubaoX! I love discovering small restaurants online. Last time I did this, I was with 2 of my ex-roomies, Caks and GelΒ (whom I fondly call the soooper twins!) and we tried PENPEN’s at tomas morato because I found their posters all over tumblr for their pasta-buffet-past-tuesday 2 years ago (wow, didn’t realize it has been 2 years already!).

So I was checking out clickthecity for restos in cubaox just because I was dying to go there when I found HALO! There were some good reviews and a few good enough people who even posted their menu online. All I needed to know was that they served pasta dishes before I barely slept the night before. In short, I was itching to go there so I made sure that everything went perfectly as planned. So after my duty in the OR and before I left the hospital that day, I had to write an on-the-spot excuse letter and fill up a leave form so I could go to my interview the next day at CSMC. We got delayed for a couple of minutes but still, we were able to visit Padre Pio church in Libis then eat at Halo and even do a little bit of Ukay shopping. It was a very productive and fun day! I even got my boyfriend to stay at the ministop branch near our village just so he could finally meet my sister! ODIBA! Sulit na sulit ang araw! πŸ™‚

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These are one of the many times that I am truly grateful to God, even though it makes me feel bad and guilty for having to sneak out in order for us to meet. But still, I’m thankful! :’)

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Just when I’m starting to like my job, despite the tight schedule and extensions, and the job description, the strict policies; I still get this feeling that I’m not fit to be a nurse. I know I’m still in the adjustment phase and I haven’t had any prior experience before undergoing this training, unlike my other batch mates; but being a fresh graduate, I feel like it doesn’t have to be this tough adapting to the new environment since it’s not “new” after all.

Anyway, today was the most eventful day of my hospital training. Aside from the fact that today was the earliest I got to the hospital (5:37am), it was also the first day of my period. As expected, I had an episode of extremely painful cheeeeneeeen: DYSMENORRHEA! Good thing I always bring Mef Acid with me, along with loperamide. Since my stomach was also acting up on me, I had to take in 2 caps of diatabs as well. At around 2 hours after I got to the hospital, I was feeling pain around my lower abdomen and then I felt a little gush “downstairs”. That’s when I realized that it was not diarrhea I was going to experience then. So, I hurriedly took in a tablet of Dofenal as well. After taking the vital signs of 4 patients at 8am (which was excruciatingly hard since my stomach started acting up), I rushed to the nurses’ station’s bathroom and took a dump. Yes, I did. Apparently, when I have dysmenorrhea, my colon probably gets irritated as well, so I usually have BM (bowel movement) too. Good thing I was able to let it all out in one sitting. HAHAHHA!

I even had to ask my senior nurse if I could buy another mefenamic acid (MA) at the pharmacy because I only brought one. She said that she’ll give me another dose (of a different med) if the pain wouldn’t be relieved by MA. They also even offered me our head nurse’s personal hot water bag. It was soooo embarrassing, yet very touching as well. They even asked me to go down to ER or to go home or even stay at the vacant room to lie down, but I graciously refused, thinking that the pain will be relieved by the med and warm compress anyway. True enough, after a few minutes (around an hour++, actually) of bending, sitting and a bit of twisting and turning, the pain went away.

I thought I was never going to be able to work well today, but before the day ended, I was able to change the IV fluid of patient I, discontinued my patient II’s IV line and pulled it out, pulled out patient III’s foley catheter, changed the diaper of my stroke patient (patient IV). I was also able to purchase (at the pharmacy) and administer medications of patient III, did their 12noon VS, changed patient I and III’s linens, did my charting and endorsement by the end of the shift.

I was thinking, I’ve never done so much in a day as much as I have today. So, I thank you Lord for all the experiences I gained today. All I can say is that I’m beginning to love this. Hopefully I could get past this adjustment phase and be comfortable and confident in everything I do in a span of 5 months. I could get used to this. I just wish that I could be in the AM shift forever! Morning person, sorry! hahahahha!

gotta love a nurse, este gotta love being a nurse palaaaaa!!!!! πŸ˜›

but not this type of nurse! πŸ˜›

**all pics courtesy of weheartit!**

#4. The best thing that happened to me this week…

I’m not sure if I can consider this THE BEST thing but I can say that this is the ONLY productive and good thing that happened to me this week and I’m not even excited about it. It scares the hell out of me, to tell you the truth, but I finally found a hospital that accepts nurse trainees……………….and training starts in November!

I’ve thought about it and I’m going back there tomorrow to submit my resume and other credentials (if you can call them that!). This is really is it! There’s no turning back now! I’ve prayed to God for this (to give me a job where I can use my full potential as a nurse) and to put me somewhere I can be of good use to to the people who need it the most. Hopefully I don’t have to work during the holidays (ASA!!!), especially not on NEW YEAR’S EVE (definitely not yet ready for that even though I know I won’t be working in the ER!)!!!!!!!

So there, for the next 5 months, I will be updating you (HI JAN!) on the new chapter of my boring life (not anymore) as a nurse trainee. Wish me luck and pray for me!!! God is good!>>>>>>>ALL THE TIME!!!