Life Lately 6: Getting Back on Track

I’ve always been a practical person because I was raised that way. I’ve always taken the road more traveled and always stayed on the safe side and looking back, those might have been the ultimate reasons why I have taken the course, Nursing.

It wasn’t until I was in college when I learned that life doesn’t always have to be safe to be secure. Ironic isn’t it? Yes, you may have taken the safe route to a practical and well-provided life, but are you secured emotionally and spiritually or psychologically?

Before my comfortable and well-planned life made a 360 degree turn, I had everything thought of. I wanted to live and work in a foreign country with greener pastures, build my own house and never return to my hometown. I always wanted that life. Unfortunately, it wasn’t how things turned out for me, but it wasn’t as disappointing as I thought it would be, and no, I’m not saying that to make myself feel better. It is what it is.

Now, I have made some big decisions in my life and those hurt the people I love the most, my parents. These aren’t good decisions, at least not for them and I can hear the disappointment in their words when they talk to me and hear it too when they don’t. I know they only want what’s best for me, but I want what I want and what I need. Sometimes, what they know is based on what they’ve been through, but the world is evolving and their generation is way different from mine, and it doesn’t feel right to remain on the safe side anymore.

I once read that you have to take risks while you’re young, to dream and to follow your heart. I’m not exactly young, but today is the youngest I’ll ever be and I feel that if I don’t find myself now, then I know for sure, I will be lost forever.

So, I resigned and planning to work from home now. I’m really excited but my parents aren’t. I still have a lot of issues to fix, but I’m hoping I’ll get it all together soon!

All negativity aside, I have finally created my 1st digital collage today after finishing Sofia Cope‘s lectures.

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After months (or years?) of having not touched Photoshop, I had to again, and I have to say, I missed it!

I enrolled in Sofia’s Basic Digital Collage Art e-class last month and that is, by far, my favorite online, art course ever!

It is a breath of fresh air, after having spent more time on analog photography, painting, calligraphy etc the past year. I can’t believe I’m going to say this, but I truly missed digital art!

I was so inspired to make my first ever collage because the topic I chose suits my current status, “Taking Leaps”.

I’m surprised I still know how to use Photoshop. It’s like riding a bike for the first time in years. You get the hang of it again once you get back on it. Does that make sense?

Anyway, I have a few ideas in mind for my next collages and I’m thinking of incorporating some of the photos I took myself!

Life Lately: Keeping the Flame Alive

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I’ve been spending more time reading, the past couple of days or make that weeks, actually. It has come to the point where I’d rather read what other people have to say than get what I have brewing in my own mind out there.

I read these amazing essays and articles all the time, and I get overwhelmed by my own stirred up thoughts and emotions, so obviously, I do want to get those out too, but when I try to write them down, they all just suddenly disappear. Does that mean anything? I’m not sure. Did I lose motivation or inspiration to write or to even do anything? I guess. Am I too tired to even think that writing is therapeutic and that it can actually help me wind down and just clear my head of these thoughts? Definitely not!–which is why I’m getting out of this rut and doing myself a favor by putting into words what I’ve been meaning to.

Anyway, I decided I needed to finish the 30 Day Writing Challenge, no matter how ambitious it has become for me. I also want to start on this project (also related to writing) I’ve been thinking of doing for a long time now. I wouldn’t say it won’t be something I might lose interest in doing in the long run because I have been on this road before and you know where that led to. Looking on the bright side though, if this works out, it should serve its purpose, which is to help someone who may be in dire need of I don’t know, an anonymous friend? Any clue what it might be?

I also signed up for 2 courses this week. One is a free course offered by The Nectar Collective called Social Media Superhero, which I fortunately didn’t miss on my email (otherwise I would’ve been moping in a corner by now). Feel free to join too if you’re interested to “learn how to use social media to increase your income, grow your online presence, and build a likable online brand”.

The other one will be a 4-week course created by Sofia Cope called the Open Art School (which I was glad I saw on my email as well). Tagline says “IT’S TIME TO PUT YOUR PASSION FIRST AND START SHIPPING YOUR ART (WITHOUT SELLING YOUR SOUL).”

These should be intimidating but sure as hell as fun! I can’t wait! Last time I enrolled for an art course was 2 years ago (Stefano Mirti’s Design 101) and it was similar to Sofia’s, except that it took 3 months/101 days to complete.

I may really have lost inspiration to do something about my passion so I’m working hard to get that back one step at a time. I still owe Elle Luna a lot for igniting the fire in me to get back on track in pursuing what I believe my heart, mind and soul all thirst for. So big thanks and a pat on the back for that!

Then there’s Abbey Sy, who like most accomplished artists, created a way to share and teach her passion to aspiring hand letterers by creating her own book!

There are a lot more artists I really look up to like the lovely Googley Gooeys, the creative The Postman’s Knock, the inspiring Aida Azlin and Susannah Conway, the analogue ladies Katie and April, the hardworking Jim Black and the rest of them who have continued to support and inspire fellow artists through their work and passion.

I should write a separate entry for all of them as these words are not enough to acknowledge the hard work they do for their followers. They all deserve recognition for what they have done. Cheers! 🙂

It’s been 4-5 hours since I started writing this and I can’t say I didn’t miss this because I did! I’m so glad I still have so much to be thankful for despite having lost a lot. I’m terribly lost in life, but I’m glad I still get to find my way back every time I trudge a little further away from the path leading to where I need and want to be.

I’m also glad I have finally written something after so long!

I was watching the movie “The River Wild” starring Merryl Streep and Kevin Bacon and I remember watching this when I was younger than half my age now and I also did not forget how it felt as intense as it was when I saw it again earlier this afternoon. It was such an incredible, fist-clenching, teeth-gritting, old school film that I’m glad I’ve seen and would be happy to watch over and over again in the future. It was exciting as it was inspiring. I love good, old movies with stories that bring back broken families together.

Speaking of inspiring, I’d like to share something I read this morning that I couldn’t shake off my mind. It was from MEDIUM, written by Nic Haralambous:

“How do you know what you want to do if you don’t know what’s out there to do?”

I don’t know how this could work for me as I’ve never been anywhere out of my comfort zone in a long time, but I’m hoping it is the answer to what I’ve been looking for. I’m hoping I could go out into the world by myself and see how it could bring out the best in me and what I really want to do in life. #soulsearching 🙂

So that’s what I’ve been up to lately. Not that you care, I know, but I’m #justsaying.

P.S. I found it funny how Saab used one too many hashtags on an entry and I thought it’s actually a good idea, being a fan of OA hashtags myself. Ktnxbye!