Life ends as I know it

Today, I thought that I’ve gone too far with being someone I’m not. I used to be someone else. I used to be naive, hopeful, but ironically, a hopeless romantic.

I found someone special and to quote Gerry from the movie/book P.S. I Love You, meeting him “was the end of life as I knew it“.

Beautiful quote, isn’t it? I’m never going to get tired of watching Gerard Butler and Hilary Swank in the movie adaptation. They were awesome and they always make me cry, no matter how many times I watch the film. It is after all, my comfort movie. I watch it when I’m happy and even when I’m sad because it has its way of always making me feel better, whether I’m in a mood or not.

I watched it early this afternoon and as always, I broke into tears.

It really isn’t easy losing someone, let alone someone you care for so much; and you don’t realize how special and important he/she is in your life until he/she’s gone.

What makes this a feel good movie, even though everyone knows Gerard’s character, Gerry dies, is that it gives so much hope that no matter how tragic life can get, eventually, anyone can and will get back on their feet, if they want to.

I love how realistic they made the movie seem, how beautiful the twist was, how lovely Irish people and Irish music are, how husband material Gerry’s character is and how moving Holly‘s, Hilary Swank’s character, journey became.

**btw, I love how Gerard’s character’s name started with a G and Hilary’s character’s name started with an H! 😉

Going back, I also love how the movie always reminds me that life is short and that anything can happen. If you’re a softy like me, I know you’d feel as remorseful as I do, every single time I watch this.

Like in the movie, sometimes, life can really be unfair.You lose someone you just can never have back in your life. It’s irreversible and there’s just nothing you can do about it. Likewise, life ends there as you know it. There’d even be a time when you don’t even get to say goodbye. How much more painful can it get than that?

I’m much luckier to get the chance to say goodbye though. It would’ve been harder for me if I didn’t, but I’m still not over the fact that he’s gone as he’s been a part of me and my life for so long that I may have forgotten what it’s like to live without him.

I can’t keep chasing after him though and I can’t keep moping around, at least not for long, so I decided to write to him instead. Writing is very therapeutic for me but I can’t keep putting down everything in here so I thought I’d write to him through another way, through letters. Everyday, I’d write to him until I don’t feel so bad anymore, or maybe until I have finally and fully accepted that he’s gone forever.

I don’t have to give the letters to him though because, duh, he’s gone. I just want to do it because it would seem as if I’m able to talk to him again.

It sucks that life hasn’t been easy for me for the past year and that I had to learn things the hard way, but again, I’m not blaming anyone but myself. I know what I did and I know what I could have done, but didn’t. I’m not wishing for anything right now except that we both get by and find peace in going our separate ways.

So that’s it! I guess it’s time to write him letter #1.

Here are two of my favorite scenes and favorite songs in the movie. One makes me cry and the other makes me feel so giddy.

Love you til the end

Galway Girl

 

30 Day Writing Challenge: DAY 14

Post your Favorite Movies that You Never Get Tired of Watching

Yes, I’m still here because I promised myself I’m going to complete this challenge (for a change), no matter what. Feel free to list down your favorite movies too!

This one is easy because I’m a movie lover, but tough because like I said, I’m a movie lover! 😛 I may never reach the end of this post, but I’ll keep it less than 10 or 5!

1) Serendipity – I bought the “Ultimate Romance DVD collection” (for a whopping P50) a few years ago and like what I said in this entry, Serendipity is definitely one of my favorites. I don’t know why, but this is the ultimate, feel good, rom-com that Hollywood has ever made and I would never get tired of watching it. It must be because of John Cusack’s weird charm (though I never got attracted to him ever) or because of Kate Beckinsale’s perfect lead role vibe, or because it was set in NYC (my favorite place in the world) in the early 2000s (my favorite era including the late 90’s) or maybe because it was simply magical, and I’m a sucker for things far from reality. I’m a lost cause, I know!

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2) Stardust – I told you, I’m a sucker for movies that has both romance + magic in it! I’ve seen this movie a thousand times because it makes me feel good every time. First of all, I love the plot (thanks to Neil Gaiman) and the characters too and the adventures I never even imagined could be sewn together in a story. What I love the most about this movie is Claire Dane’s character, Yvaine’s ultimate profession of love to Tristan Thorn. You should at least watch that scene or read her speech. It would make you feel how beautiful it is to be loved, even for those who haven’t been in love yet! You can read it here, I also blogged about it before. 😉

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3) P.S. I Love You – When I’m sad, I watch this movie all the time, because it’s an instant antidepressant. I feel magically inspired even when I’m feeling down because it changed my perspective on love and on happy endings. Of course, everyone knows Gerard Butler’s character dies at the beginning but life and their love story didn’t end there. This movie always makes me bawl and I couldn’t help it because it always reminds me how love is so beautiful, it makes you feel good even when it gets taken away from you. So the buckets of tears I have cried watching this movie must be really tears of joy! 😛

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4) Harry Potter movies – Have I mentioned how much I love magic, ever? LOL. I never really thought how much I love watching movies with a touch of supernatural elements until today. Well, who doesn’t love the boy who lived, right? I admit, I’m a bigger fan of the movies than the books, so the movies made me read the books and not the other way around. Another thing, I grew up with these kids. I’m the same age with Daniel and I can remember, I was in 6th grade, 11 years old, when the first movie came out and I gathered all the cheap memorabilia, magazines and freebies I could find and kept them all safe in a box which unfortunately wasn’t spared during the great flood, a.k.a. Ondoy. Now, 4 years after the last installment, I still watch the movies time and time again. I can say that the magic definitely stays on, and I’m taken back to my childhood years, reminiscing about the magical world that the children of our generation have been blessed the great opportunity to be a part of.

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5) The Parent Trap – I used to watch this all the time, ever since we saw it in school when I was in 3rd or 4th grade. So when I saw a VHS copy at the mall, I asked my parents to buy it and we watched it as a family once and I watched it again and again after that. A few years later, VHS evolved to VCD and when I saw a copy, I got it for myself. Truly, it was one of my favorite movies to watch when I was young! We used to do the handshake too back then with my classmates. I also used to cut my own bangs like Halley and Annie did. I was obsessed! 😛

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