#choosemust

“The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why.”

– Mark Twain

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I saw this book on the Best Sellers section of one bookstore last Friday, and it instantly grabbed my attention. I admit it wasn’t the title that made me look twice, but the cover as a whole (I told you I was a very visual person). It was artsy and messy and the title was made to look like it was hand-painted by a child.

My heart fluttered when I saw the copy on top ripped out of its clear, tight plastic covering. That was an opportunity I wasn’t willing to pass up. That means I had every right to flip through the pages and see if it was at least a bit more interesting inside than it already was on the outside.

True enough, the colorful texts and hand-drawn/painted illustrations inside didn’t disappoint. It ignited a flame inside of me that kept me warm and giddy inside. I was in love.

I was flipping through the pages when I realized that this book was what I needed in a really, really, really long time. I couldn’t let go of it because I wanted to devour every single thing the author, Elle Luna had to say. I was and still rotting in a quarter-life-crisis and this book was one of the self-help, inspirational reads I was looking for for the longest time. I went over the whole book once more and I decided I needed to get one of the last 4 copies (at least on the bestseller table) that night. I didn’t have much money left and the price was way more than I was willing to pay for a book then, but my heart was breaking free out of my ribs telling me not to let go of the book, but I did.

One part of me was willing to starve for days just so I could get the book that instant while a smaller part of me was saying I could go on another week without it. It’ll have to wait and I’m gonna have to practice self-control and delayed gratification especially in that particular moment. So I let go of the book and went to sulk over to the art supplies section. When I got what I wanted, I went to my other favorite section where the art books were and took note of some and listed them on my “to-buy” list.

But before I left the store, and after thinking it through for another 3 seconds or so, I finally decided that I had to get it then or not at all.

It was not a hard decision at all and I’m glad I grabbed a copy because I’m loving every bit of it. I don’t even want it to end. Like I said, I wanted to devour every bit of it as slow and as sure as possible, like it was a cake I would never have the chance to eat again, ever. I wanted to absorb every last bit of inspiration I can feed out of it.

So far, that flame I mentioned that has been ignited deep within me has grown into a fire that helped me think a bit clearer now. I’m slowly getting hypnotized into pursuing a passion that I have yet to fully understand and discover. It was the encouragement I’ve always wanted to have, the push that I needed to feel confident about what I might have potential in. At last, I have found a source of courage and enlightenment that I have longed for and prayed for over and over.

I’m so glad I found this book and I would hold on to this until I have fully understood what my purpose is. I may have no clear direction of where my life is headed, and the path in “choosing must” might not be as easy as it sounds, but with faith in God and in myself and with a bit of inspiration here and there, I know I can make it.

I’ll share a few more things I have learned from this book soon, and I’ll try my best to go on this journey, inspired to find and pursue what I was really born to do in life.

Here’s to a rough but meaningful and fulfilling journey we call life!

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30 Day Writing Challenge: DAY 13

What are you excited about?

I’ve actually written a draft for this entry a couple of days ago, but I’ll scratch that and start over since I was a bit down then and it wouldn’t have been as exciting.

Looking back at the past few days, I have always thought that going home from work was the most exciting part of the day for me, but hey, right before this week ended, God gave me 3 things to look forward to doing/having, but I’ll just talk about the first two for now!

1) First, there’s my very own copy of Abbey Sy‘s first book, “The ABCs of Hand Lettering“! YAAAY!!! I was very excited when I got her newsletter, but it also got me a bit worried since I knew that I had to wait for payday before I could buy the book, and in my mind, I was panicking because I knew it would sell out in a jiffy. Come Wednesday afternoon last week, right after work, my feet were itching to rush to the nearest National Bookstore, in Robinsons Galleria, and true enough, the book was sold out. The last copy they had was reserved for another hand lettering hopeful. So I asked if they still had copies of the book in their Megamall branch and I was relieved to have a peek at the screen where it says that they still have about 30+ copies there. Unfortunately, I haven’t been able to purchase the book that same day because I didn’t want to go all the way back to Megamall. You could just imagine how big of a sacrifice that was for me, to wait another day before buying the book! It was indeed “delayed gratification” in the scariest possible way. I had to trust God that a copy would be waiting for me the next day. I rushed to Megamall right after I got off work the next day and went straight to the arts and crafts section. When I didn’t find it there, I had to think where the Summit Books usually were and I was right, when I turned around, lo and behold, the books were sitting right across from where I was and no, I didn’t even wait for everything to go into slow motion and grabbed one immediately!  Haha! Anyway, to cut the already long story short, I finally got one and now, I can’t wait to practice and develop my own style in hand-lettering! Again, Thank you Abbey!

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Why doesn’t the embed option for Instagram work on WordPress? Anyway…

2) Another thing I’m excited about is another book, or two. Yes, books! Again! I have never been this excited about books since the great Books for Less Escapade last year and my quest for a copy of Alexa Chung‘s book, “It“, half a year ago. This one is different and much exciting though, because I won Hayfamegashi’s book giveaway! Last time I won something from an online giveaway (despite joining so many) was back in 4th year college. It was a pen from one of my favorite bloggers/photographers/artists/fashionistas, Aida Azlin. Back then, she was still in college too, I think, and was just starting out. Now she’s married and has her own online shop and a bigger blog that I’m still currently subscribed to. I won this pretty pen, but what I liked more was the envelope. I couldn’t believe it was possible to ship that fast from where she was to my house and that the envelope came all the way from another country, from someone I look up to a lot! P.S. I had to look through tons of laptop selfies and groupfies to find these photos. I thought I’ve written an entry for this pen giveaway back in 2011 but I didn’t, so thanks again, Aida, for this!

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I’m a sucker for anything handwritten and snailmailed and analog and artsy, but I’ll talk about that on another post.

Anyway, back to this book giveaway. Hayfa Megashi sent me a message through tumblr that I won and I couldn’t believe it at first, but when I realized that it’s real but it was too late for me to respond, I snapped out of the trance I was in, sent back a message and now, I have finally chosen 2 books under £10. I couldn’t be more excited!!! I needed this, so thank you Hayfa and happy birthday!! I thank God too for all these little blessings. 🙂

So, what are the 2 books I requested for? Well, I’ll blog about them soon. Currently, there seems to be a little problem with Paypal, but I hope this gets approved soon! **Crosses fingers**

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I’m not much of a bookworm, though I’m a big fan of non-fiction literary pieces ranging from book compilations of short, real-life, inspiring stories to funny, real life anecdotes of ordinary people, to plain contemporary non-fiction type of books. Maybe I was too impatient to read long, dragging novels or maybe I was too content with having to read books in just one sitting (which dates back to grade school years when I used to love reading compiled horror stories) which is why I am more interested and giggly at the sight of these types of books.

This one I got a hardbound copy of from Booksale for a whopping Php45 only! ata? and it’s a compilation of short and funny anecdotes of the author herself.

This one is surprisingly, a novel, which I downloaded an ebook version of, and mind you, I think it’s probably the wildest (if you know what I mean) book I’ve read so far, but also one of the most romantic of all! ❤

At around 2002-2003, came the awkward teenage years when I learned to read a bit of fictional, young adult books (thanks to classmates who were generous enough to share their collections of Sweet Valley High/Middle School books). Later on, I discovered another genre of much interesting reads——-the amazing ‘chicklits’. If I’m not mistaken, I think I read my very first romance novel back in high school, thanks to my good friend, Christine who lent me her copy of “the Breakup Diaries” (I think). Thanks to that very instant too, I learned to love Philippine contemporary literature. I got addicted to the rest of the Summit Books and bought whatever I thought was appealing in terms of  book illustrations/design and syempre, the synopsis at the back. I can even remember being excited, exchanging insights about these books with my 3rd year HS seatmate, Pochay. Also, my sister, Kat also influenced me into reading this one book titled “Drama Queen” (also by Summit Media) which by far became one of my/our favorites because of it’s intensity 10 kakilig ending!

i encircled the ones we already bought and the last one on the right of the 2nd row is our fave!

Fast forward to the present time, I still buy and read books by local authors, however, I found myself taking interest in romantic novels written by foreign writers BIGTIME! Thanks to Booksale, I found a couple of dirt cheap novels that tickled my hopeless romantic heart. Then, when I discovered the joy of downloading ebooks online. I couldn’t help but fill up my disk space with TONS of free copies of books of different genres. I was able to download Paolo Coelho‘s novels and so were Nicholas Sparks‘ and Neil Gaiman‘s! I even downloaded and read the entire book 6 of Harry Potter on my ever dependable laptop! Imagine having to take pleasure in reading your all time favorite novels without having to burn your pockets!

Today, our 1 week lecture was culminated with our evaluation exam. Phew! We finished a little before 2pm and I headed straight to Ever  Ortigas! Sadly, I wasn’t able to buy a book since I am saving up for the repair of my laptop’s charger. Good thing my trip to National Bookstore didn’t exactly suck seeing a lot of new books I could save up for next week!

First of all, I discovered these cute-colored novels of the Little Black Dress books with fancy illustrations—-hundreds of them on the teen-lit section. They were all priced at Php255 and they were all pretty interesting. I think I spent more than an hour reading almost all the books’ synopses!

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Then there was Alexandra Potter and her equally eye-catching novels.

This one I was itching to buy because I was so interested with the plot (it’s a rom-com :)))). Unfortunately, I really was prioritizing my laptop repair so much I had to control my urge to buy it.

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Then there was the book I was eyeing for the longest time, “Kapitan B”, which I would most probably be buying 2-3 weeks from now, if God forbids!

Long story short, I was “craving” for a new romantic novel, something with a bit of comic relief (since I’m a sucker for rom-coms) to help me unwind especially  in the weeks to come. I’m scared I’ll drive myself crazy if I don’t find something to amuse myself with! 😛