Hypocrisy

Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. Why do you see the speck that is in your brother’s eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother’s eye.

-Matthew 7: 1-5

What pisses me off more than criminals and people who leech off those who are weak and vulnerable are the HYPOCRITES (which sounds like a name of a bad-ass band).

Anyway, we find a lot of them around us; and sometimes, if we aren’t careful enough, we become hypocrites too. Good thing there’s a Bible that teaches us how to avoid becoming one. I especially like this verse above that has a similar thought to the “Golden Rule“, which is also mentioned in the very same chapter as this one.

It’s ironic that I had to use a bible verse to start off a post that is basically just a good ol’ RANT on something that I strongly feel bad about at the moment, but since they always say that the teachings in the Bible are timeless, wouldn’t it make sense to do so?

Of course, I’d feel bad if I don’t admit being a hypocrite myself, at times, because I’m definitely not an exception, so it’s good that certain things have to happen to slap us back to reality.

Take this boss of a friend for example, who for some reason, may possibly deliberately degrade them (my friend and her colleagues) at work (where else?), on a regular basis. She’s almost comparable to Miranda Priestly, only worse because they’re not in a movie and no one seems to be as brave as Andy to tell the boss she crossed way beyond the line. My friend has put up with the boss for a long time now and like Andy, she’s sacrificed so much for the company and also just to please her, but the harsh treatment doesn’t seem to end. What makes it worse than it already is, is the fact that this boss leads a bible study group among her employees. Isn’t it ironic, not to mention hypocritical?

Trying to be unbiased at first, I tried thinking of reasons behind the said boss’ attitude. There has to be a reason why she’s what she is, but in the end, we gave up because no matter how things add up, nothing can justify the bad treatment and the offensive language she’s using on her subordinates. It’s just unacceptable, even to the standards of the most foul-mouthed person in the world.

Then again, her hypocrisy is nothing compared to this controversial politician’s whom I have had the worst feeling about for weeks now. She’s making my blood pressure shoot up to 100/70 (which is pretty high for someone with a normal BP of 90/60 LOL!). She just doesn’t seem trustworthy herself, no matter how strongly she condemns the wrongdoing of others.

I’m a Scorpio and naturally, I use my instinct for a lot of things and for some reason, I just couldn’t get myself to like her. There’s something about her that makes her look like she’s in a quicksand where the more she struggles, the deeper she sinks into it. I feel sorry for her being put in the raucous spotlight of inquisitions that led to the surfacing of an offensive, “below-the-belt” video, which she now uses as a tool to turn the tables on her accusers. Nonetheless, she still doesn’t get my trust, for now. I just hope that she wins her battle, if she’s proven innocent, otherwise, she’s just like most of them/us, hypocrites, only worse because she’s been, in the words of our very own, Dr. Jose Rizal, one of the biggest of this society’s “cancers” all along.

Not to be the one to point a finger on anyone, I must admit, as I’ve had earlier, I feel guilty about being a hypocrite too. I know I’ve been trying my best to get the most out of the Scriptures on the Bible, but when it comes to my relationship with my boyfriend, I just couldn’t seem to get things right.

While I was watching ROAD TRIP on the Light Network one night, I was struck by something Pastor Ru mentioned; and it wasn’t something new to most, if not all of us. It was so simple yet so profound and easily taken for granted. What he said was “If you truly have experienced the love of God, then you shouldn’t have a problem making this love felt by others” or something like that. Okay, that wasn’t even close to what I think he said, but you get the idea, right? So I was left pondering on it for a long time. And right then and there, I was “b*tchslapped” so hard, my blemishes came off. Kidding aside, I felt so ashamed for thinking I was becoming better by reading the Bible and praying everyday, yet at the same time, I was being a bratty, inconsiderate girlfriend. To be fair though, it really does take hard work and a whole lot of understanding to keep relationships strong, and sometimes I just feel like banging my head to the wall; but just the same, it doesn’t give me the right to completely disregard my partner’s feelings.

Ayun eh, sa lovelife nauwi. Anyway, some of us might feel a little guilty of having opposing thoughts and actions or of not practicing what we preach. I’m even proud to acknowledge giving love advice I could barely do myself, but I also acknowledge the fact that I have to do something about it. I can’t despise the Scribes and Pharisees yet be one of them, right? because I really can’t stand even  just the thought of them.

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30 Day Writing Challenge: DAY 9

Put some words of wisdom that speak to you

“If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always, there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself”

-Desiderata

My father always wanted us to read 3 things, the Bible, the Gospel and the Desiderata. He would buy us the 365 day gospel book every year and print out copies of the poem for us, although the latter never really struck me until I heard the musical version on the radio too.

We used to tune in to RJ 100.3 all the time on the way to school and back home; and every evening, they would play the song consistently. I had no choice but to hear that every night, but when I finally got myself to listen to it, one line struck me the most and you guessed it right, that’s the line I written above!

I’ve always compared myself to others, to my peers, to my high school batchmates, college batchmates, family friends, co-workers…you name it, I’ve compared myself with them all! It never really made me feel good though just as it says in the poem. I would either feel envious or boastful and neither made me feel any better.

When I think about it now, I’d say that I’d have to learn to do this the hard way and I did. I still compare myself to others but I only get hurt and depressed every single time I do. So I try to convince myself that standards in achieving greatness in life shouldn’t be set based on other people’s achievements. We all have different goals and dreams and means of attaining them and if I would only be driven to go as far as where the others have been, then I’m limiting and underestimating myself. There’s really no need for comparison, since we were all made to have a purpose in life and that’s where our focus should be. We lose track of our purpose if all we have to live for is to outdo other people.

I seriously talk too much in my head!

Desiderata

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So Much Good News in a Day

Today, I woke up not knowing how much I’m going to have to wait more for something good to come into my life. Then again, I know and I realized that I should start counting my blessings and seeing the glass as half full rather than the opposite.

Last Sunday, the priest in our church was new (or so I think), and he just delivered a very good HOMILY, as in 11/10 good. You know, I started to really digest everything I hear in church now especially that I’m slowly starting to get all the cliche we used to only hear back in grade school Christian Living, that it’s what really matters MOST in life and I know that above everything else, you really have got to put God first above everything. Somehow, it also helped that I seem to have lost a lot of things in life, so it only just made me tighten my grip on to God even more, because He’s the only one (aside from my family, few friends and loved ones) I have right now.

So realizing that instead of sulking and waiting and putting my time into waste, I thought, why not include a bit of reading the Bible in my daily bum routine, yes? So I did just that and researched “How to read the Bible” (yep I had to know where to start exactly, but I’m not ashamed of it) because my family only used to read the 4 gospels back in high school, so why not include the rest of it too, right? (TBH, I used to be really envious of people from other religions who could recite Bible passages from cover to cover) I guess I also realized I couldn’t savor Eleanore and Park and just leave my Bible to collect dust on my shelf. It’s like enjoying the company of a friend and seeing your other friend stare at how you are having so much fun, but leaving him/her to rot on the side by him/herself. The only difference is, I would really like to spend time with this friend here and not just because I feel sorry for her/him.

That was the first good news! It literally is THE GOOD NEWS. Get it? I started off with Mark because it says so here and I’m following the guide they included here. I actually like the rules that they enumerated:

  • Pray first before opening God’s word.  Ask for guidance and to be able to accept what is written and to be able to apply His will to your life.
  • Never, never read the Bible trying to proof your belief on any subject.  It is only human nature to take ideas out of context. 
  • When you are reading and come across something that does not make sense, reread the paragraph or chapter again.  If you still do not understand, write down the problem area and continue onward. You may discover the answers later in your reading.
  • Do not read large amounts of the Bible in one setting.  Take breaks often.  Or stay with about 4-6 chapters a day. A good reading schedule is here.
  • Start with the New Testament, people who start with the Old Testament almost never read the Bible all the way through.  The New Testament is what is binding on us today not the Old.  We need to follow God’s will for us today not what was intended for the Jews.
  • Forget everything you have ever heard about Jesus, God and the Bible before you start reading the Bible.  Don’t take what you want it to say with you first.
  • Always use a ‘literal’ translation like the KJV, ASV, YLT, NKJ, KJII, KJIII, LITV, MLV, NASB (1978). (Other translations not listed should be avoided.)
  • If you don’t have a cheap Bible, buy one. Write on it, highlight it, make notes, if later you want to retire it for better, do so. NEVER buy a ‘study bible.’ They are full of peoples opinions which you don’t need clouding your mind!

Then, I checked my mail to see good news #2! It’s related to what I have been waiting for, for months now but I do not want to elaborate on it, not unless it becomes a sure thing. I guess I’m trying not to get too excited about it by not talking much about it like I used to in my previous ventures. I remember this scene in the Time Traveler’s Wife when Clare started to get frustrated because she’s had a couple of miscarriages and didn’t want her third pregnancy to end up the way the first two did, so she said that

From now on...

  
...we're not gonna fight anymore.

  
We're not even getting excited.

  
I mean, if stress is what's causing
the traveling...

  
...then we should give this baby
the most serene gestation on the planet.
from: script-o-rama

So Just like Clare, I don’t want to get excited or show even just a tiny bit of emotion regarding good news #2. I might not even have to call it a good news at all, because that is showing too much emotion already! Yep, I just didn’t want to jinx it this time 🙂

Moving on to good news #3, since I got too hooked on this book by Rainbow Rowell, I decided to read the rest of her books and spend less time on the internet, but in between that and catching some interesting tv shows, I also checked Corinth‘s site again after so many weeks passed. I got a little bit too preoccupied by so many interesting film photographers that I thought, I needed a break from that (since they’re all really good, it’s overwhelming). When I checked her blog, lo and behold, she and her fiance just tied the knot! I went wild and I couldn’t help but feel awfully and genuinely happy for them. I’ve been a big fan for quite some time now and since I’ve been following their story too much, I felt like I know them for real. I forgot that I’m just a spectator, but even so, I just really couldn’t contain my happiness. Usually, I’d get really jealous of stuff like this like what I told my friend Jan earlier, but somehow that is out of the picture for me right now.

I guess with all the good news and good things, there shouldn’t be any room for any negative thoughts in my head for now. I’m starting to realize that you cannot lose everything in life. You’ll always have something good and more important at hand, you just don’t realize it because you’re too preoccupied with the things that blinds you badly.

Yesterday, I remembered this thing Jan told me about me being lucky to have all the time in the world, I could do anything I want. I just realized it again now, boy I really am lucky to have time and I shouldn’t put it to waste. There’s a reason for this free time and I should manage it wisely but extremely enjoyable . So even if watching FRIENDS seemed like a bad idea, I did it anyway and it wasn’t so bad after all. I loved this show ever since I first saw it on tv and I shouldn’t beat myself up for the 7 hours I spent yesterday watching the third season because I had a great laugh and I needed that. I also realized a lot about my relationship with my SO, so it helped me loads on that area of my life too.

My point is, I shouldn’t be sulking or feeling guilty all the time. I know time is running out, but I also know I’m doing what I can to do something about my life and I know and I trust that God’s timing is the right one. So I shouldn’t make myself feel any less useful than the rest of the working/employed world. There I said it, but really, this is not a pity post or something to make me feel good about myself. In fact, I really feel so much better than I have ever felt for the past months.

On that note, I’m on to my next feel good activities, I’m baking butter cakes and watching Pay It Forward!!! I’ve always wanted to see this, but I never got to, so I have completely forgotten all about it, but now that I have remembered (thanks to related videos menu that pop on the side on youtube) and since I have all the time in the world, I might as well give it a go now 🙂 —-P.S. that is one heck of another run on sentence I wouldn’t correct anymore. 😛

Looks like I’m getting good at appreciating the smallest things in life 🙂