Life Lately / Desko

We just had our company’s annual physical exam today and we all got 2 free vaccine shots today, one on each arm. I had a hard time driving as it feels like I was punched on both arms. Still really very grateful though for the company’s health benefits! Plus, all Cebu assigned employees had a mini reunion for this annual event.

I decided to finish all my paper work today at this quiet little nook I discovered last week, but I’m guessing based on their full parking lot (which could only fit 4 cars), that it was packed. I wasn’t too bummed out about it too long as I saw a newly opened co-working space on the way to the said secret nook. I had an excuse to check it out!

Lo and behold, this co-working space, Desko turned out to be exactly what I wanted it to be!

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Although it had limited, not to mention extremely steep parking space (my car floor had yet again been injured), the office space itself is ……spacious! I had to look it up online to see what it looks like before I went here and when I saw that there were lots of tables for one, I knew I found the right place. I had to check it out, no matter the cost, the consequences and the climb (to the parking lot). LOL!

So I’ve been here for 3 hours now and I just finished liquidating some of my transactions. I have checked and sent emails, responded to my clients, organized my receipts. I was supposed to visit a particular department today, however, I just decided to maximize my time here as I have been working my ass off for the past days anyway. Plus, my colleagues and I have been dismissed early by our boss as well, so why not cut myself some slack?

So I’m just savoring my time here as I will be back to working doubly hard tomorrow! I wanna thank God for this peaceful time I had today. I’d probably be back here over the weekend and on days I wanna blog or finish my online courses.

I just had their sisig and I loved it! I’m not sure though if it’s canned sisig, but the fried rice was unique in a really good way (i wonder how they cooked it), the egg white was runny (which I surprisingly loved), and the pink onions added a sweet and spicy kick to the sisig!

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As I type this, I am also promoting this place to my friends who are fans of another co-working space here in Cebu. We were comparing prices earlier and we agreed that Desko is so much better than the other place in so many levels: the interiors (love the comfy chairs), the space, the ambience (really quiet in the afternoon but lots of groups of students at night, lights are perfectly installed in all areas with tables), the treats (unlimited iced tea, coffee and water), the sockets (available on almost all corners and tables), the service and the cost to name a few.

It’s funny though, being in places like this makes me fantasize about a life as a freelancer. I mean, this can really work for me in the future, should I establish myself as a professional designer/artist/photographer. On top of that, I can also see myself managing businesses that I really love, a.k.a. my very own massage place or a cozy coffee shop by the beach!

Funny how a lot can change in a few years, including my perspective, my plans and my priorities! Keeping fingers crossed coz I’m planning something huge this year!

xoxo,

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No More Wasted Nights

I don’t remember falling asleep last night; although I am sure I went to bed early as I was dead tired from the equally excruciating weather and job of mine.

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I woke up at 2:30-ish this morning and I realized that I didn’t take a bath before I went to bed, just as I would have wanted. I heard the water still running in the bath. Oooops, I did it again!

I couldn’t stand the heat so I had a quick bath, yep in the wee hours of the morning and I haven’t slept since.

As usual, I went to scour my phone for likes. I posted another film photo on my gram. I watched Chris Evans and Elizabeth Olsen on Ellen. I looked it up to see if they were dating. I was relieved to find out they weren’t, but who can prove that? Then, I began thinking whether I’d ever get myself my very own Chris Evans with America’s ass. JK.

I put down my phone for a bit, but I still couldn’t go back to sleep.

So, I decided I’d read my Neil Gaiman book, hoping it would eventually get me sleepy, but it didn’t. I got it from the Book Binge Bazaar of National Bookstore here in Cebu. I finished chapter 9, which is his “MAKE GOOD ART” speech for the graduates of University of Arts in Philadelphia. I ended on page 495 this afternoon while waiting to cover an oncologist, not knowing that the chapter ends in page 496. 

I went on to read the next chapter, “The View from the Cheap Seats“, which is also the book’s title. It was eye-opening and a little amusing as it talks about his Oscar’s experience, with all the celebrities he did and did not know. After that, I proceeded to reading the introduction. Just as he said in it, I was right in thinking that this book can be read in no particular order, as it is a collection of his speeches and essays. It is very engaging. It didn’t make me want to go back to sleep.

Instead, it made me want to make good art and to write this entry.

1 1/2 chapters into the book, yet I’ve already got loads of takeaways from the book.

I like what he said on how to focus on a goal and how not to get sidetracked by doing work that pays but isn’t in line with your objectives. I also like the way he sees making art as a lifesaver, because it would get you through good and bad times.

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It also is very timely that I got his book at this point in my life as I am faced with a crossroads once again. Just as he didn’t, I also don’t want to be stuck in a position that would lead me further away from my goal, so I need to make decisions may they make or break me.

I am turning 30 this year yet I feel like I might as well retire from work, just because I’m tired of doing something I do not love. It is pathetic.

Good thing though, I have a good support system as ever. I did get over my little dramatic moment with my boss a week ago and I’m choosing to fight this battle as courageous as possible, with the help from God and my loved ones of course. 

I had to get out of the house quickly and early this morning as my landlady warned me that people are fixing our street today. I am stuck in my car in the hospital parking lot because all of our clients are in Manila for the PCP convention. So I guess, I’m gonna make that art now!

P.S. I am so in love with my photos that were scanned by Sunny 16 Lab!

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P.S. 2, I am so in love with Avengers Endgame. I watched it alone, and I’m glad I did!

P.S. 3, No more wasted nights is from one of my favorite songs to date by ONE OK. And yes, I’ll keep doing what I want, I want, I want. No more wasted nights!

Off to make good art now!

 

 

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Filmmaking and Deliberate Living

FILM MAKING

Last Saturday, I attended another Colours Foto event here in Cebu. This time around, it was sponsored by SONY PH INC., which is why I was so excited! They offered free cleaning services for the first 15 attendees! Did I mention that the seminar itself was also free (with free snacks) and the speaker was none other than the the great, Pepe Diokno!

 

 

 

 

The talk ended earlier than planned as there weren’t a lot of questions from the participants; but it was packed with lots of amazing takeaways on filming documentaries and travel videos, I had to take notes!

What struck me the most at the beginning of the talk was the story behind his successful career in the film industry. I guess every great person had something to struggle with before they got to where they are now and Mr. Diokno was no different. He shared how he struggled to find his voice at the start of his career, not to mention how he went through a couple of mishaps, which I had to admit were terrifying but inspiring at the same time. It made him a bit more relatable and a little less infallible, at least through my eyes.

Another important takeaway from this talk was (of course) about filming documentaries. He taught us the 3 golden questions to ask before deciding if a documentary is worth doing or not:

  1. Who is the story about?
  2. Who is telling the story?
  3. What interests you the most about the story?

Simple, but these questions are the deal breakers as these would align all the other elements of the film to your plot.

Apart from these, he also shared a lot of tips, from evoking answers you need from the people involved in the story, to the camera set ups, to the pre, post and production of the film.

He also showed a lot of his works, most of which brought a lot of the attendees to tears, me included.

His award-winning films include “Engwentro“, “Above the Clouds” and “Kapatiran“.

 

 

 

 

He’s also known for tv ads that could make even the toughest men cry.

 

 

In the middle of the talk, I remember I had an epiphany! Well, it’s either that or I just got carried away so bad, my emotions were playing tricks on me! So I realized, I’m not meant to pursue nursing (despite having a license and hospital experience) nor am I destined to be successful in a corporate world, because my heart will truly beat only for ARTS and MEDIA. Though I know it would be hell to pursue, I feel that it is something I should go after, may it be in the near future or not.


DELIBERATE LIVING

Speaking of epiphanies, I must be on a roll this weekend as I had another one while watching this documentary on Netflix called MINIMALISM.

I watched it twice yesterday and I felt like it was speaking to me knowing that in my heart, I yearn for a life in simplicity.

I have struggled with depression and eternal quarter life crisis, not only because I used to constantly compare myself to my peers and social media made it worse, but also because I didn’t know how to fill the void in my soul, heart and mind.

This documentary and the Minimalists, Joshua Fields Millburn and Ryan Nicodemus helped me understand why people remain unhappy despite having everything money can buy.

After watching it twice, I felt the need to follow a minimalist lifestyle to be able to save up money this year, to live a deliberate life rather than a compulsive one and to be content and happy.

That is the goal and that is what I want for my life from now on.

Right now, I wanna learn more about living a minimalist life and how to declutter my life so I could let go of the excess stuff, not only the physical but as well as the emotional and psychological baggage that burdens me.

Boy, am I glad to have found a new PODCAST to follow and 173 episodes to indulge myself with!

 

I know the first 3 months of this year went by so fast, but I’m committing myself to continue with boxing for a stronger me, to pursue my real dreams and to live a more minimalist lifestyle. I have never been more excited!

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What is GOOD Customer Service?

In all of my jobs in the past, of course not excluding my current job, ATTITUDE is a crucial factor. It’s one of those “make or break” criteria that can significantly affect your status in the company.

I remember when I worked as an underpaid-overworked (it is important that I emphasize those) nurse in the past, not once did I ever show any horrible attitude to any of my patients nor to their relatives, even if I was provoked or so sick myself with effing cramps and dysmenorrhea while wiping their asses. Well, at least not in their faces.

That was my first job ever and being a nurse taught me not just the skills and expertise in health care but also the patience and respect that are both VERY important in customer service bec obviously, it is still 101% a customer service industry.

I remember there was a time I was going to work with very little sleep and stressed over a break up. I was feeling confused, scared and panicky all at the same time and the break up was all I could think of on the bus going to the hospital, but the moment I stepped in to our station, I knew that I had to focus if I don’t want to fuck up any of my patients’ lives too. I was there to work and to serve these people. I should give them the best care they can get, and I have to say that I am pretty proud of myself for being able to put a line between work and my personal issues.

That was true even for my callcenter stint. I talked to quite a few (lucky me!) @$$holes on the phone and some did really get on my nerves, but I couldn’t curse them back bec customers (no matter how wrong and offensive they are) are always right. But once the call is done, so was my composure—–mura galore before I took the next call.

So really, I was trained to exercise a whole loooooooot of patience in the past and to maintain self-control no matter how horrible the customer was.

So it really sucks to be on the other side for once and be given a crappy service just because they’re fucking tired of their lives or the previous customer was an ass. At the end of the day, everyone is fucking tired and you don’t know what crap one of your cutomers took from their own clients as well, so be effing nice even if it sucks, even if you’ve taken crap from your own boss too because guess what, that is life!

Nothing in particular triggered this post and this rant though. This just popped out of my head. LOL. JK, last night, tired from doing field work all day, not to mention the night before and I just wanted to bring home a nice dinner for myself real quick and this effing new girl from this place I love was OBVIOUSLY having a bad day. I noticed that she was getting impatient with the customer before me who took all the time in the world to fish the BEST chicken there ever was in the serving tray. When it was my turn, I courteously asked for a beef steak “take out”, which she obviously wasn’t paying attention to because she put the beef on a plate so I had to tell her again politely, “miss, iputos ra.”

I didn’t know she was sooo mad at the whooooole world and as expected she threw my food on top of the dish trays instead of handing them to me properly. I was thinking, “What the fuck did I do to you, girl?!”

I am not the type to spark an argument with people because let’s be real, I wouldn’t win in any of those haha and I don’t ever wanna pick a fight with my food servers ever, but I’ve done this once (to a short-tempered, lying LBC girl) and just told the cashier “mainit ulo ng server nyo noh?” before I left.

I knew I couldn’t let that moment pass without doing something to correct her attitude. When I was younger, I could take a crap from everyone, but I realized, I’ve been through the worst in life but I never took it out on strangers and that should be the same for everyone. For all I know, they could be facing so much worse. So I had to make sure that she learned her lesson without demeaning her.

What I told the LBC girl after she wrapped my package in a calm manner (I was trying hard to) “next time miss wag masyado mainit ulo mo.” Then she defensively denied that she was angrily tossing and taping my package.

To be honest, I could really feel (and I’m not the first person to say this) that somehow, it boils down to me being “Tagalog” in Cebu, why I get the crappy customer service (calls for another post soon!), which is why I do try my best to learn Cebuano, but that’s just my personal observation in general, but kudos to a number of Cebuanos who are genuinely kind and accommodating! You deserve all love in the world!

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LIFE LATELY / I GOT INKED for Life!

I have a confession to make. I got a tattoo yesterday, July 14, 2018 in Cebu city!!!! That’s it! Thanks for reading guys! I just want to put it in writing! I am MARKED FOR LIFE! LOL!

My parents are gonna get really mad so I’ll tell them when I’m older, waaay older like when I’m in my 50’s or something. Seriously!

I knew in my heart, waaaay waay back that I want to get a tattoo. My parents would never allow for it to happen so while I’m living miles away from home, I got one!

Deep within my heart, I am an aching artist waiting to bloom fully and tattoos for me, are artistic expression of the heart, mind and soul.

How did it finally happen?

Well, my desire to get one intensified when some of the people I know started getting tattoos. There’s my grade school friend, Kara who got herself a ballerina and a serotonin chemical composition tattoo and whom I also asked to go with me when the right time comes, my friend from the hospital I worked for, Laurice who had her whole back tattooed with beautiful dandelions, my friends from the BPO company I worked for, Xuxa and Ton who each got geometric icons. Then there’s my cousin, ate Kaka, who is also staying here in Cebu, also a few miles away from home. She got tattoos all over her body now, her mom also not aware yet! LOL. My favorite tattoo on her is the mermaid on her rib, because she is a mermaid herself!

So, I’ve really been thinking for quite a while now. I decided, I would donate blood to Red Cross first before I go through with it, just in case something comes up, because as we all know, we cannot donate blood for at least a year after getting a tattoo. I wanted to make sure I get on RC’s priority list before I get marked for life!

Sadly, my hemoglobin levels are on a low (again) which rendered me unqualified for blood donation. So our plan (my colleague, Ma’am Grace and I) had to be moved until my Hgb goes back to normal.

A few days or weeks into taking iron supplements, I got to talk to my cousin, ate Kaka again and learned she got more tattoos, because it’s true what they say, particularly my ex, Bri, getting tattoos have an addicting feeling!

So she showed me a few more tattoos she got on her back, a beach wave, a dog paw, an anchor connected to a compass and a flower. So I asked her where she gets her tattoos done and recommended me, Ann Savage. She has a shop just within the city and she said they were all really friendly and accommodating!

I told my colleague that I am getting a tattoo whether I get to donate blood or not. I want to do it once and for all, for myself and she was determined to get one herself so before my beach trip with my friend Chris in August, I knew I had to get my first one!

My dream first tattoo!

I always wanted to get a Scorpio constellation tattoo as my first, but I guess, I’m just gonna have to go back for that (soon! JK!) because I got the quote on my IG account tattoed first.

The story behind the tattoo

For the longest time, Oasis’ “Stop Crying Your Heart Out” was my Instagram and Facebook and LIFE mantra, but a few months or almost a year ago, I changed it into a French statement. I wrote the statement and went to Google Translate and carefully restated each word into French.

My first French statement was “Je suis vivant et vous aussie!” I can still remember every word clearly. It translates to “I am alive and so are you!“.

Then I finally changed it into “Voir la magie de ce monde a travers mes yeux” which means, “See the magic of this world through my eyes“. As a photographer wannabe, my purpose is to inspire people to see beauty in the world, the magic that it still has through the moments and people that I capture, so I can spread inspiration and just the plain old good vibes!

I got that tattooed on my hip, which I could only show you when I’m wearing a bikini at the beach, so I had to get the tattoo fully healed before going to Iloilo this August!

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Did it hurt? How did I go through with it? What was I thinking the whole time?

Yes it hurt, but if I’m gonna rate it on the pain scale, it would be just a 5/10. My dysmenorrhea hurts waaaaaaaaaaaaaay worse than this! Some said it would feel like a cat scratch, but since I’ve never been scratched by a cat before, I would describe it as a little kid shallowly writing on your skin with a needle. There were times when it felt ticklish and there were times when it felt painful, but like I said, just a 5/10.

When we got to the shop, Ann wasn’t there. Sadly she had to go to the doctor to have her sinuses checked, and she does tattoos by appointment only and she’s fully booked til August, but I still wanted to get a tattoo so bad, I didn’t care anymore if it was a girl or a guy who was going to do it. I needed to get it done yesterday! So there I was, draped in a towel and a thin scarf in side lying position and got it over with!

I was quiet the whole time, even though we were so loud when we first stepped into the shop. I was thinking, “was my butt showing through my scarf? The disinfectant felt really cold on my skin and so was the razor! The first touch of the needle HURT!!!!” then it got tolerable, “oohh that felt nice! Now I know why they say it’s addicting! K Imma sleep now!”

Halfway through the tattooing, Ann walked in and we had a brief exchange of smiles. Didn’t get to take a photo with her, but will just probably snap one when I get my second tattoo!

So that’s it! No regrets! I loved my tattoo and so did my friend. We were marked for life and will be getting another one for sure!

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If you want to get inked and looking for a tattoo artist within the city of UBEC, you can find their complete contact information below and they have their own aftercare line in vintage art!

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