The Only Good Thing in My Life

We all know that FRIENDS episode when Ross was super whiney (I mean, whinier than usual) because someone at work ate his sandwich, right?

Well, he was having a difficult time with his second marriage at the time and he explained that the only good thing in his life then was the sandwich he brought to work; but then, a co-worker ate it so he came running to his friends and threw the biggest tantrum an adult could ever do.

That’s super painful to watch. Imagine this gigantic man screaming like a girl.

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That was before I got into a little mishap (or should I say, a couple of them) today.

My day was going fine, until the security alarm in the department store I went to today went off when I passed through it. As per routine, the security personnel asked to check my stuff, so I handed him my bag without hesitation. I was calm the whole time and they apologized when they learned that the alarm was triggered by the bar code sticker (of National Bookstore) at the back of the book in my bag.

With utter nonchalance, I went on with my business, which was just to go home after a long day, not caring about those who stopped to see what the commotion was about.

When I got inside my car, I texted my brother and one of my dearest friends here in Cebu about what happened, but then I couldn’t brush it off my head, remembering how one girl looked at me as if I did something wrong.

I was overthinking again. What if someone took my photo. What if those people judged me outright for something I did not do? Why did it have to happen to me? Did I honestly deserve to be put to shame like that? Was that karma for something I did in the past? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY DID I HAVE TO BE PUT IN THAT SITUATION?!

I let it go then off I went to get food for me and a friend. Unfortunately, all the odds weren’t in my favor as the food I got for myself spilled. I wasn’t going to cry, but then THAT WAS THE ONLY GOOD THING IN MY LIFE, but just like that, it was gone.

For the first time ever, I drove off with tears running uncontrollably down my eyes.

My hormones must be on fire as I couldn’t hold back my tears.

Suddenly, all my other worries came rushing in my mind. I was so sad, I wanted God to hug me.

When I was walking back up to my apartment, I thought, this must have been what Ross felt when someone ate the only good thing in his life, right?!!

Truly, things happen for a reason, but since I couldn’t think of what that may be and since I got to write about it here anyway, I’ll just let it go and let God.

I am sooo f*cking tired, emotional and saaaaaaaaaaad. I wish I could crawl back into my shell and never come out again.

Why did it have to happen to me? I was slaving my a** off helping people around all weekend, but that wasn’t enough to spare me that moment.

Have you ever considered that being kind doesn’t equate to a problem-free life? That’s why people often ask “Why do bad things happen to good people?”

I guess, we all need to be put in such situations in order to learn, to not take things for granted and to be more cautious in the choices that we make in life.

Happy Sunday everyone! Laban lang!

xoxo,

mars2

 

 

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The Magic of Film Photography

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Sometimes, I can’t even recognize where I shot my photos. Some rolls contain images that jump from one moment to another or from one place to another. It’s like a Walter Mitty kind of thing. I’d have to look at the next frame to have a clue where the former was taken…..and I love it!

xoxo,

mars2

Every Blessing is a Gising!

Gotchar attention, didn’t I?

I didn’t mean to write that on purpose. I am just beaming with positive energy at the moment and I couldn’t get my fingers to type the expression correctly.

I love this saying. I used to hear that from Ogie Diaz on their morning show day in and day out and it made me smile every time because it did make sense, and it still does!

Every gising is a blessing!” only means “Every waking day is a blessing!“.

There aren’t a lot of good things happening in the world today as Toni’s husband, Paul said in one of her interviews (particularly on Bianca’s PBT show), “Life has its way of putting you down“.

Yesterday, I wasn’t in a very good position as I couldn’t really get to one of my targets ever since I started working for this current company, and it’s hard especially since I’m letting myself and those around me down.

What’s tougher is that some of those I count on in times like this, whom I have also constantly supported in their lowest points couldn’t do the same for me. It hurt me a lot, although I have to understand that they too are going through a lot.

Anyway, I went home all down and mad as bad vibes were apparently unleashed all in one day and that day was yesterday.

I woke up not feeling any better. I was looking for a way to turn things around and in prayer, I have found my solace. Thank God. -> always!

I am also grateful for Bianca Gonzalez-Intal‘s “Paano Ba ‘To?!“, which is sort of a mini online show to help those in need of solicited advice. Sort of like the Joe the Mango show of our times, except that this one goes beyond love problems.

If you have seen her series of interviews with these amazing people, good on ya! If not, you HAVE to!

So I have seen most if not all of her PBT videos, but the first and the topic I could relate to the most was this:

So, how to deal with difficult or toxic people as per Piolo Pascual himself? Putting yourself in the person’s shoes, do the sandwich technique, pray for the person and forget about pride raw. How to do all those things po?

Another favorite from this series is her interview with Anthony Pangilinan:

I loved this because I love learning from counselors, career advisers, life coaches etc. They have all these techniques that are applicable to businesses and life in general.

One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned from this 7-minute interview is “Never separate the word purpose from opportunity” which Anthony quoted from Peter Drucker, the father of management. Any opportunity that isn’t connected with your purpose is considered a DISTRACTION. Cool eh?

and I know I should also include her interview with Karen Davila but I’m way past my fresh grad years and I could relate more to the concern of Mr. Kulang sa Kumpiyansa, a.k.a her interview with Iza Calzado.

I like her tips which I really have figured out before, but I just don’t always do:

  1. Always bring something to the table and must keep up with the times. – contribute to the conversation
  2. Everyone makes mistakes. – this one I have not really figured out yet, but thanks to Iza for reminding us.

So that’s it! I guess you could tell by my PBT choices how old I am, with the concerns I am focusing more on. Haha!

Oh, this just in, I also love her interview with Atom Araullo, a.k.a. the eternal question: Practical Job or Dream Job?

And his advice? I know I have heard this one before, ehem ehem paging NIN!!

Have a stable job to support your passion!” and lots of other things like “finding your passion in the job that you have” –which may not be as applicable to my line of work, but what the heck, it’s still pretty true.

P.S. this just made me realize, I’m still lucky I have a day job to support my passion and for me to be able to still do what I love on the side. 🙂

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xoxo,

mars2

Time for Solitude

One thing I realized as I started working away from home is that I actually liked and appreciated being A-L-O-N-E.

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You know when you watch these coming of age movies and see this independent protagonist, who btw, also happens to be an outcast loser weave his way through the cafeteria only to be judged and mocked by all these other kids who are so full of themselves, and you think, “why wasn’t I as brave as this kid when I was in elementary (or HS even)?” Some would ask, “Why am I not still brave enough now that I’m freakin’ turning 100?”. Wehhh OA!

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I wasn’t an outcast loser back when I used to wear my checkered uniform, but I also wasn’t the popular kid, and I have to say, back then, I dreaded being alone.

I couldn’t go down to our school canteen without anyone to accompany me. I feared not having anyone to talk to on the way to our school gymnasium for first Friday masses with the entire school. Heck, I even feared going to the restroom alone, but for way scarier reasons, if you know what I mean! 😛

Like most people, I grew up caring so much about what others thought about me. I guess, it’s part of growing up. You have to look good, smell nice. You have to do well in class. You have to have Jansport backpacks. CHOS! And most importantly, you can’t be seen alone, because people will feel sorry for you. WRONG!!!!

I used to hate being alone, but no so much anymore.

When I broke up with my ex, it felt weird to be shopping alone or eating alone, but it wouldn’t take long before I got used to the feeling. I started feeling comfortable doing things on my own. I carried my gigantic bags. I sit in coffee shops alone. I go to church alone (although my eyes still well up at the sight of families holding hands and kissing in church). I even go on roadtrips alone!

I started enjoying the feeling of being able to go wherever because you don’t have to consider what your companion has in mind. All decisions are up to you. It doesn’t matter if you change your mind faster than you blink your eyes, you have no one else to blame but yourself, and it’s okay!

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I like being alone on most days. In fact, I enjoy being alone. It’s a breath of fresh air. It makes you think out loud, yet it also silences the mind. You get to clear your head, talk to God, be mindful of the beautiful things that you have taken for granted.

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You also get to be grateful for the chance to have time all to yourself. It’s time that can never be lived again. It’s time that you will crave for on chaotic days. It’s your escape on negativity. It’s your time to rest and set everything aside. It’s your time to spread your wings on top of a hill while feeling the breeze through your hair without caring what other people also on the same hill think about you. 😛 Life doesn’t get any better than that, so cherish every moment that you’re alone. It’s a blessing in disguise.

Time alone also made me realize all thaaaaat! O diba? May kagandahan sa pag-e-emote! 😛

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With all these goodness spilling over from having that well-needed solitude, I am slowly learning to stop caring about what other people think of me. I can never have control over that. I try to focus instead on what God thinks of me, which is waaay more important than what anyone else thinks of me.

Plus, I also got to take lots of photos in my me-time!

 

xoxo,

mars2

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3 Good Things / 1

Whenever I pull up my IE browser to do some admin work, I easily get distracted by these recommended articles on MSN’s homepage.

Before I know it, I spent about 20 minutes just reading one article after another.

True enough, after doing my morning rituals for today, I had some time to spare to do a little reading on some of the trending news including the best back details of women’s dresses during the Emmy‘s and why Avril‘s the most dangerous celeb on the WWW today.

Moreso, I chanced upon this article on things you can do before 9am that should make your day better. One of the said things being, able to practice contemplating on the good things that happen to you on a daily basis and writing about them.

It was said to have decreased depressive symptoms in those who have done the exercise for as short as a week or so.

I have been doing this for a while in the form of this blog series, FRIDAY’s 10 HAPPY THINGS, which was started by another fave blogger, Helga Weber of Ditz Revolution, however, I often forget doing this on Friday nights because, you know, Life and I sleep early at night coz lola mode.

I might try doing this and post occasionally here, but regularly through this private journal app, JOURNEY , which ya’ll should download if you’re not the type to write long entries on your real journals. Hehe.

Maybe this could make my heart bloom with positivity despite all the hate and negativity in this world.

So much for that intro, so to casually segue into this new writing exercise for the soul, here are my 3 GOOD THINGS that happened yesterday:

  1. Free brunch. My colleagues and I usually share our blessings with each other and so every chance we get to have freebies, we get grab!!! Haha. Kidding aside and more importantly, I love spending time with the people I currently work with in my area. They take all my worries and troubles away, plus they make me laugh so hard, so you know, all the freebies are just mere bonuses! It’s still all about quality time! 🙂
  2. Surprised our Boss. Yesterday, I was feeling stressed out by the fact that I had to do all these tasks for our boss’ surprise dinner on a Tuesday, which was the busiest day of the week, while making phone calls and finalizing plans for upcoming events this week. Though I was busy multitasking, and showed up late for dinner, I’m glad I got everything done and that we made our boss happy, which was what’s important! 🙂 I literally forgot what I was so grumpy about when I saw that he was really happy with the birthday dinner that his team planned for him.
  3. Good food. This always makes up for all the negative things and the challenges I face on a daily basis. For our boss’ birthday dinner last night, we dined out at Matteo Guidicelli‘s restaurant, Trattoria Da Gianni and I could not stop eating once I arrived. We also saw Slater Young and blogger/author gf, Kriz Uy who were both very nice and seemed really humble.
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photo grabbed from Boss!

All’s well that ends well! Thank you Lord for making all these possible. I could never have done any of these without YOU! 🙂

Happy HUMP DAY! May you spread happiness and optimism to all whom you shall meet today! 🙂

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