I’ve been meaning to list down my New Year’s resolutions since the beginning of the year, but I haven’t been able to muster up the energy to do so because I’m awfully drained of it by this rollercoaster of a life.
Hence, I decided to act on them first before I set them in stone.
Today is the end of February, on a leap year, a day which will take another 4 years to come by. This should be the right time to write another post, while waking up from a dreamless and semi-restful sleep, perhaps to compensate for the horrible nightmare I had the night before.
Mercury Retrograde is also upon us. If you’re feeling inexplicably odd the past weeks, then you’ll have to endure that for another 9 days. That is if you believe in the astrological sense of things, or maybe so in the fact that anything is possible. 😉
Seemingly, I’ve been drifting through the past 2 months of this year, observing a millennial way of vigilance, through social media. I should list down all that has happened in these months, but it would be easier for me to just look it up online because everyone else is talking about what a shitstorm the start of the year has been and besides, we all ought to move past from that anyway.
In that momentary period, amidst all the noise, I found myself keeping my composure and putting all efforts instead into an outpour of Instagram stories and maybe a bit of self-improvement practices.😝
Now, I’m not too proud of making my online presence felt (too in-your-face if you ask me😝), but I am highly so in the habits I’ve been practicing on the road to a better me.
Marie Kondo-ing my life! 😝
- For the longest time, I’ve been intending to declutter my room and I made the time to do so on my first ever vacation leave for the year! Heck, I was even able to Marie Kondo the hell out of my clothes, shoes and the fuddle & muddle that is my stuff. I’ve learned the art of spring cleaning ever since I was left to fend for myself (uhmm hello, adulting), but never have I ever done so with the intention to give away stuff (without my mother asking me to). With that, I was able to gather a big bag of my clothes and shoes, some of which have only been used once for the reason being I can live without them in my life. That takes me a step closer to my dream of living a minimalist life (been obsesssed with the Minimalism documentary and Tiny House Nation on Netflix), even though that means that I still have 99 more to go to do so. 😝
- I’ve also always been disorganized (coz artists are messy – feelingera!) and I wanted so bad to break that habit among others, so that once I have achieved that, a sense of peace will follow into my life. If I continue doing so for the next few months, I will be able to develop the habit of keeping everything into place. As they say, it will take about 90 days to develop a habit and before you can achieve that, you need to find it in yourself to commit for at least 21 days straight doing whatever that habit you want to achieve. Easy enough? I’m powering through it as we speak!
- This next one is a struggle, but I hope that it’s a sign that I am on the right track. I have this tendency to complain and rant about petty things such as being cut off on the road by a reckless driver or annoying encounters with random strangers all the time as if I don’t have more important things in life to worry about. In effect, I get so whiny, I sound like a brat to my friends and followers on Twitter 😝. Lately, I’ve been practicing less of this and more of “keeping calm and carrying on”. I’d like to be able to achieve a less sense of entitlement as if I do everything right among everyone else whom I assume does everything wrong. I also want to give a fuck only to things that matter. This way, I get to choose my battles that would result to less energy lost in vain. That’s the gist of Mark Manson‘s “The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck” btw, if you haven’t read it yet.
- One of the biggest achievements, should I be successful in this pursuit is to save more this year. I should have done this earlier in my twenties, but I had it ingrained in my head that I wouldn’t have been able to do so with the little pay I had in my first job as a nurse, not that that mindset has changed with a significantly higher pay in my BPO job after that. I wish I should have learned earlier what Chinkee Tan always emphasizes in his talks, “If you don’t learn how to save with a smaller pay, you won’t be able to do so with a higher one!“. I’ve only been able to push myself to start seriously saving last year and that might have been one of the most adult thing I’ve ever done, together with managing finances and expenses responsibly. I am working hard on this and I wish there is an easier way to cut on my expenses, but really, there is only discipline and intent that I can rely on to achieve this!
- Lastly, I am also able to more and more, grow my faith in God. As I have shared in the past, I have been attending one of my doctors’ bible studies for more than a year now and even though I am a Catholic, they welcomed me with the intent to bring me closer to God. Of course, I am eternally grateful to my parents for instilling in us a sense of gratitude and the foundation of our faith in God. Never would I have had the desire to be closer to Him without first learning and understanding why I want and need to. Having learned this, I am now also able to value faith more than religion, and with that faith, I can do all things on this list along with determination and a tad of courage.
I have a few more things on my list that I want to commit to doing this year including writing and working out more and using social media less, but just as the rest on this list, I’d rather start by doing them first and maybe write about them when I already have.
Cheers to 2020!