Tiger

To the person I almost loved.

When I met you, I didn’t like you at all. I thought, I wouldn’t even wanna talk to you, even if the world ends.

But you changed my first impression of you in a way that I wouldn’t have expected, just as our first meeting was. Unexpected.

When I got to know you, I kept telling you, you were too good to be true. You were slowly unfolding into the real you, letting me in to the person that you truly are, and again, I thought, you’re weird, but I like it.

Never a day went by that you didn’t brighten my morning with your “go get them, Tiger” texts. For the longest time, I never thought that someone would dare break down this wall that I have built, so no one could come close, until you came into my life.

When I talk to you, my mind opens up to a world that I never thought existed. You constantly test my beliefs, my wisdom and my limits in a good way.

I craved for your attention, for your time, for you and slowly, you became part of my life I wouldn’t want to end. I didn’t know if I was falling in love. I didn’t know if it was love that I was feeling. All I knew was that I care about you just as you care for me.

You ask me a lot about future kids. You talk about building [our] house on a hill top. You tell me things that make me like you even more. Maybe I was falling, all thanks to you, the person, I almost loved.

I like how good looking you are and how brilliant your mind is. I like how you are so good to the people around you. I like how you let your sad past mold you into a good man that you are now. I like how your mind works. I like your insights on life. I like how you take care of yourself, and your family. I like that you know yourself well and that you have planned your future. I like that you stand firm with your decisions.

Thank you for trusting me. Thank you for opening up to me. Thank you for kissing me and hugging me and holding my hand. Thank you for pigging out with me and for working out with me after. Thank you for worrying about me. Thank you for taking care of me when I was sick. Thank you for being disappointed our beach trip got cancelled. Thank you for listening to my worries and for making them go away. Thank you for making my faith in God stronger. Thank you for teaching me Bisaya. Thank you for getting in to the photobooth with me even if you didn’t want to. Thank you for getting into my car that day where it all started. Thank you for all the beautiful memories.

I’m sorry if I was impatient or paranoid. I’m sorry if I was a bit selfish. I’m sorry I wasn’t able to wait for you.

If tomorrow, we meet again, I would like to let you know that you have inspired me to be a better me. You made me braver and stronger with your Buddhist mantras. You made me smile with your dog videos. You made me love Cebu even more.

You taught me things I would treasure forever.

I told you most of these things. I thanked you a lot for them too. I just hope that I would’ve told you I am lucky I met you and that I loved you and I miss you.

Go get them, Tiger!

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The Sunday Currently / 16

Again, this is a SIDDATHORNTON BLOG LINK UP. This series ended in 2014 yet a lot of people still continued theirs on their respective blogs. I was #76 on the list of blog links and will post my 15th TSC today as I missed it so much!

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C U R R E N T L Y . . .
 
R E A D I N G  “The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck” still not done with this coz I started reading other books, but I’m almost done with this one! Hoping that I won’t run out of Mark Manson wisdom, but it is what it is! Read a really good chapter while at the laundromat earlier today.
 
W R I T I N G  this blog post and maybe something on my personal journal. I saw “Definitely, Maybe” again today and I was inspired to write a handwritten entry on my journal!
 
L I S T E N I N G  to the Mars Chill Hitzzzzz playlist on Spotify! haha! Latest addition is LFO’s “Summer Girls” because I thought about it while posting our 90’s themed photos online!
 
T H I N K I N G  about commuting to work tomorrow. I want my car baaaaacckkk!!!
 
S M E L L I N G  my chicken noodle soup!
 
W I S H I N G  I could finally rest from all the corporate work and just open up a snack shack at the beach!
 
W E A R I N G  my plain gray shirt and undies! Oooops!
 
L O V I N G  the fact that I jogged, did my laundry, went to church, went grocery shopping and had a big Mongolian bowl for lunch all before 2pm and without a car and without riding a trike!
 
W A N T I N G  peace of mind and more competency in my line of work!
 
N E E D I N G  cuddle time, intense skin rejuvenation and detoxification!!!! I’m so stressed about the small bumps that appeared on my face and back!
 
F E E L I N G  grateful! I just wanna be grateful to the Lord all the time! There’s so much we need to thank Him for, we just forget to because our whole being is clouded by so many worldly worries!
 
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