Ikaw

 

Hindi ko lubos akalain na yung taong minsang naging malaking parte ng buhay ko, wala na.

Hindi ko akalain na malipas ang halos 2 taon pagkatapos naming maghiwalay, iiyakan ko pa rin siya. Siguro dahil sa pagkakataong ito, alam kong hindi na muling magkkrus ang landas namin; at sa pagkakataong to, alam kong hindi na ako kawalan sa kanya.

Sana dumating ang panahon na pareho na tayong masaya. Sana sa bawat paglubog at pagsikat muli ng araw, makamtam ang pag-asang muling magiging makulay ang buhay na minsang nabahiran ng sakit at pagdurusa.

Wala na akong ibang hihilingin pa kundi ang katahimikan ng aking puso’t isip at ang mabigyan ng pagkakataong muling magmahal na hindi iniinda ang kaakibat nitong sakit at pagdurusa.

Balang araw, ang mugto kong mga mata ay mapapalitan rin ng ngiting walang hanggan.

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One Great Takeaway from READY PLAYER ONE

Yesterday, I was feeling a little more tired than usual and was passing time in Megamall as my sister and I waited for our turn at the dentist.

As someone who has depression, I think it’s pretty normal to have days when you don’t feel like doing anything. Yesterday was one of those days when even the thought of doing something artsy didn’t excite me as much, and it bothered me.

Good thing, there was “READY PLAYER ONE“!

I’ve been wanting to see this for about a week now and I’m glad I saw it with none other than my sister coz I went home in Manila for the loooong weekend to celebrate a lot of my family’s birthdays.

So I’m right back to feeling high again. Truthfully, I don’t like this “YOYO” effect on my emotions, but I’ll make do with what I get for now, and what I got was one heck of a reality check (pun intended), thanks to RPO!

I’m assuming everyone has seen this since it’s a Steven Spielberg movie, so a little spoiler won’t hurt, but I just wanna make sure I get this one great takeaway from the movie on this blog as I would with any other thing I treasure the most and it’s the moral.

I didn’t get the exact lines (and I couldn’t find them online), but I loved the scene in James Halliday‘s room in the end, where he said that most of us choose to escape reality by resorting to virtual realities or for most of us, the online world. Because of this, we fail to make connections in real life, in the real world, which is how one should live.

I also loved the part when he said that we shouldn’t be afraid to feel disappointed or hurt, because that is part of living. We get hurt every once in a while, but that shouldn’t stop us from living life in REALITY.

So I found the quote from the book, (Thanks GOODREADS!)

“I created the OASIS because I never felt at home in the real world. I didn’t know how to connect with the people there. I was afraid, for all of my life, right up until I knew it was ending. That was when I realized, as terrifying and painful as reality can be, it’s also the only place where you can find true happiness. Because reality is real.”
― Ernest Cline, Ready Player One“‘

I cried a little on that part, partly coz I felt sorry for James Halliday, and hugely because I somehow felt the same way. One day, we would all be living a life in a box if we don’t start living right now.

I know this sounds easy for me to say, but in a few days when the movie’s effect on me wears off, and I’m back in reality, I would say that we escape it because of our fears. Fear of rejection, failure, disappointment, fear of losing your job, your partner, your money, that is all there is. So we stop living because all we have are our fears.

When this happens to me, I pray and I think of how great our God is and how in a blink of an eye, He can turn things around and how He is bigger than all of our fears and problems.

One day we are all going to die, but before that happens, I wanna make sure that I truly have lived. Even if the world seems so full of shit, there is still some good in it.