survey #3 and last for the day

This one, I just got randomly (so don’t judge). You could get one by clicking on this option on click on the photo for more!


1. in a relationship
2. it would be an insult to my partner if i answer the former. sometimes when i’m really mad at him, i always wish to go back to being single, but it’s hard for me to imagine a life without him. —more cheese please
3. only 1 🙂
4. this would be my only and longest one
5. yes
6. yes, because as they say, it keeps the fire burning and it also helps in keeping intimacy and that certain bond between a couple. – yes expert lang?
7. nope
8. i think that you should never judge anyone, not even those who do it. also, i think that most people have far more complicated and deeper reasons for doing it.
9. none. refer back to question #5
10. my current partner and i broke up last year because of so many things i already forgot about.
11. only one
12. N/A
13. communication, compromise, trust and lots of fun time together
14. yes and still am
15. only when you’re 101% sure about it
16. 22, i think! i’m so pathetic, i know
17. yes
18. only when i become overly dramatic and say things i don’t mean
19. nope
20. yes and hopefully before i turn 30 or 29 haha!

survey #2

1. Are you satisfied with the way your life is right now? – no

2. Do you drink enough water? – i’m trying

3. When was the last time you ate at Burger King? – in April or last month

4. Do you prefer the beach or the mountains? – beach! or it depends on my mood

5. How do you usually feel when you wake up on a morning? – when i don’t have work, i usually feel excited and happy

6. Would you rather take someone on a date, or be taken on a date? – be taken on a date

7. When was the last time you wore high heeled shoes? – last year at my friend’s parents’ renewal of vows

8. Vodka or wine? – not a wine person, so vodka

9. How often do you cry? – only when watching sad movies

10. Ever had a crush on a teacher? – yes

11. Can you wire a plug? – no

12. Do you wear socks to bed? – only when it becomes too cold which is almost never

13. What is currently bugging you? – that i couldn’t find a right job and what’s worse is i’m turning 25 this year!

14. Where were you when you got your first period? – at home

15. Can you change a car tire? – i know how but I surely can’t with my sapless arms and all

16. Have you met more than ten celebrities? – nope

17. Do you sleep naked? – no

18. What was the best music gig you’ve ever attended? – probably mymp’s?

19. Have you ever had sexual feelings for anyone you follow? – on tumblr, yes

20. Do you think Benedict Cumberbatch is hot? – who’s he?

21. Favourite Disney princess? – BELLE 🙂

22. Favourite city? – NYC

23. Can you drive? – yes

24. Cigarettes or alcohol? alcohol

25. Excercise or healthy eating? healthy eating

26. Favourite and least favourite accents? – don’t want to be rude

27. What are you looking forward to? – getting a new job 🙂

28. Did you play Red Rover when you were a child? no, although now that i’ve read about it, i wanna try it!

29. Are you more attracted to men or women? – probably women since I’m only attracted to one man 🙂 cheesy

30. Do you like 1980s fashion? – it’s too over the top for me, but i like it still

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Survey #1

It’s been a while since the last time I answered a survey like this one! It’s soooooooo high school!

I’ve been too hard on myself the past days looking for a job, so to cut me some slack, I’m going to answer one of these! weeeeeeeee!

Without further ado…… here’s my 84 Questions:

  1. Put your music player of choice on shuffle and list the first 10 songs
    • Let Me In – Grouplove
    • Rude – Magic!
    • What You’ve Done To Me – Samantha Jade
    • Ain’t It Fun – Paramore
    • All of Me – John Legend
    • All of the Stars – Ed Sheeran
    • Breakeven – Samantha Jade
    • Let Her Go – Passenger
    • ooooooooooooops! Can I tell you a secret? I only have 8 songs in my new phone!
  2. If you could spend a week anywhere in the world, where would it be and why? Would you take anyone with you? – new york city! and if i could, i would bring my whole family and my boyfriend with me!
  3. What is your preferred writing implement? (eg. Blue pen, pencil, green pen) – love using different colors!
  4. Favourite month and why? – November because it’s my birth month, I love how it sounds when you pronounce it and it’s the month before December, my second favorite month!
  5. Do you have connections to any celebrities (even minor)? List them. – I’d like to think that I do, but I don’t!
  6. Name 3 items you could pick up from where you are. – towel, cheetos, cell phone
  7. What brand logo is closest to you currently? – by proximity: american eagle outfitters, by heart: Canon
  8. Do you ever play board games or other non-computer games? Got any favourites? Yes, probably this pen and paper game someone invented when we were in high school and “bato, bato pick” – both of which I’ve recently played against 2 kids from my last job 🙂
  9. A musical artist you love that isn’t well known – The Format and Freelance Whales – they’re somehow well known though
  10. A musical artist you love that is well known – Taylor Swift 🙂 darn choice i know
  11. What is your desktop background currently? 11 different owls sitting on a tree branch wearing a single scarf
  12. Last person you talked to, and through what you talked to them – my B over the phone
  13. First colour name you can think of that isn’t in the rainbow – coral
  14. What timekeeping devices are in the room you are currently in? – cell phone, clock, watches and an hourglass!!!
  15. What kind of headphones do you use? – the one with a microphone from cd-r-king haha!
  16. What musical artists have you seen perform live? – not much: mymp, parokya ni edgar, arnel pineda
  17. Does virginity matter to you? – 101%
  18. What gaming consoles do you or your family own? – xbox 360
  19. What pets do you have? What are their names? – shih tzu named Charlie, 2 dogs with no particular breed named Cutie and Poochie
  20. What’s the best job you’ve ever had? – none! just kidding! probably out of the two I had, being a nurse 🙂
  21. What’s the worst job you’ve ever had? – hmmm none!
  22. What magazines do you read, if any? – teen vogue, lots of local and international, fashion and entertainment mags, men’s magazines, katha magazine and lots of artsy magazines on 🙂
  23. Inspiration behind your URL? – my name 🙂
  24. Inspiration behind your blog title? – same as above
  25. Favourite item of clothing? – kimono cardigan
  26. Are you friends with any exes? – N/A
  27. Name at least one book you loved as a child. The Twelfth Angel and Archie Comics (it’s still a book)
  28. What’s your native language? If that language has distinct regional variations, which variation? (eg. AU English, US English) – just FILIPINO
  29. What email service do you use? – yahoo and gmail
  30. Is there anything hanging on the walls of the room you are currently in? – my paintings, a pink mirror and a clock
  31. What’s your favourite number, and why? 8 because it looks like an infinity symbol and it’s my birthdate minus the digit 1
  32. Earliest moment in your life you can remember? – SEPANX moment during my first day in preschool when I was crying really hard and loud with both arms wrapped tightly around my mother’s waist. Everyone was literally trying to peel me off my mother that traumatic day 🙂
  33. What did you have for dinner yesterday? leftover lunch (father’s day and bro’s despedida lunch)
  34. How often do you brush your teeth? – twice to thrice a day – eewwiiieee
  35. What’s your favourite candy/chocolate? – ferrero rocher and sour candies
  36. Have you had other blogs on Tumblr? Do you have any other blogs currently? – none and yes
  37. If you were suddenly really hungry, what would you choose to eat? – cake 🙂
  38. What fandoms would you consider yourself a part of? hmmm probably BATB
  39. If you could study anything, what would it be? – photography, creative writing and filmmaking
  40. Do you use anything on your lips? (eg. Chapstick, gloss, balm, lipstick) – yes
  41. How would you describe your sense of humour? – it comes and goes
  42. What things annoy you more than anything else? – hot weather
  43. What kind of position are you in at the moment? – lying on my bed with my laptop in between my tummy and bent leg
  44. Do you wear much jewellery? – lots of non-expensive ones
  45. Who is the leader of your country, currently? Any other levels of government with leaders? (State, region, province, county, district, municipality, etc) – President Aquino, Governor Ynares, Mayor Nieto
  46. Last 3 blogs on your dashboard, not including any of your own – wheresmykaleidoscope, falling-deeperinlove and fotosdebuenosaires
  47. What do you carry your money in? in a coin purse or sometimes in my card case
  48. Do you enjoy driving? Why or why not? – no just because i’m always too stiff and nervous and driving is hard in the Philippines (too many crowded and not to mention narrow streets, lots of motorcycles and selfless drivers around)
  49. Longest drive you have ever been on? – just around a still empty subdivision
  50. Furthest away from home you have ever been? – Bohol
  51. How many times have you moved house? – just once
  52. What is on the floor of the room you’re currently in, not including furniture? – lots of bags
  53. How many devices do you own which can access the internet? – 2
  54. Is there is anything that is guaranteed to always make you happy? – Sundays (family days) and dates with my boyfriend
  55. Is there anything that always makes you sad? – whenever B and I part ways
  56. What programs do you currently have open? – Viber and Google Chrome
  57. What do you associate the colour red with? – blood and sex
  58. Last strong smell you can remember smelling? – our dog, Charlie
  59. Last healthy thing you ate? – cultured milk
  60. Do you drink tea or coffee, and how much per day? – yes and yes, just when I need to stay awake and whenever I want to relax respectively.
  61. What do you associate the colour blue with? – the sea/water
  62. How long is the closest ruler you can find? – 6 inches
  63. What colour pants/skirt/etc are you currently wearing? – violet
  64. When was the last time you drank water? – just an hour ago, i think!
  65. How often do you clear your browser history? – not much these days
  66. Do you believe nude photos can be artistic, rather than erotic? – definitely
  67. Ever written fanfiction for anything? – nope
  68. Last formal event you attended – my friend’s parents’ renewal of vows
  69. If you had to move your birthday to another date, which one would you choose and why? probably January 1st
  70. Would you prefer to be at a beach or in the countryside? – beach definitely!
  71. Roughly how many people live in your town? hmm probably 60,000?
  72. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? yes! my high school batchmate
  73. Favourite place to shop? Can be a certain store or a place where there are multiple stores – national bookstore and booksale, divisoria, department stores, greenhills, forever 21 (window shop haha)
  74. Do you have a smartphone? What kind? If you don’t, do you want one?yes. Samsung Android phone.
  75. What is your least favourite colour, and why? – orange because it doesn’t look good on me 🙂
  76. How do you spell grey/gray? – gray
  77. Go to your dashboard and describe the image shown in the radar section (below the “Find blogs” link) – it’s a pilot’s selfie while aboard an overturned aircraft showing a couple more stunt pilots and the sea behind him
  78. What difference is there between how many followers you have, and the number of blogs you follow? – a huuuuuuge difference! I always follow a million people
  79. How many posts do you have? – 3,596
  80. How many posts have you liked? 803
  81. Do you post mainly reblogs, or your own content? i do reblog every once in a while
  82. Do you track any tags? – most of the time
  83. What time is it currently? – 8:15 am, although I started this before midnight last night
  84. Is there anything you should be doing right now? – updating my resume

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Celebrating the two of the most important men in my life


Today we celebrated father’s day and my brother’s last day here in Manila. Tomorrow he’ll be flying to Cebu for work and he’ll be staying there for a month. Then he goes back home for 2 days for a conference/training in July, before he leaves again to stay in Cebu for good, or at least for a year or two. This is his first real job and as mushy as it may seem, it would be heartbreaking for me to see him go (even though I won’t be seeing him off at the airport tomorrow).

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It hasn’t sunk in at all yet, probably because we went to church today like we would on any normal Sunday. We were as usual, making fun of each other during the mass. Went to Katipunan to get some cakes and to our favorite Chinese restaurant in Taytay to get our pre-ordered lunch. Drove around with his extremely loud house music playing in the background. It didn’t feel like his last day at all.

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We had lunch with our family and relatives, and even though his impending trip became the subject of every conversation, it still feels like it isn’t real at all. Am I just imagining it all? Will his flight get cancelled so he won’t have to go yet, at least not for a few more days? Am I going through denial, the first stage in coping with loss? If it is so, then would I have to go through the other stages(anger,bargaining, depression) as well in order to reach the final stage which is acceptance? Why am I overthinking the whole thing? Are my parents feeling the same thing? Is Kat, my brother’s partner-in-crime, too cold-hearted to feel this way?

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Why is it so ironic that I’m having these kinds of thoughts, that I’m feeling sad and all, but I couldn’t even cry a single tear? I’m going to miss my brother. That’s the only reason why, but I couldn’t let it out by crying so my brain’s compensating by sending mixed messages to the other parts of my brain and now I’m going nuts! Oh now my tear ducts finally decided to work again. Really?


As I was typing the first few sentences of this post, my sister was even asking for the latest episodes of their favorite shows, “Game of Thrones” and “Suits” from him. Am I the only one acknowledging the fact that he’s not going to be here anymore this time tomorrow?? Why isn’t anyone crying at all?

I know my parents are so proud of him, especially my father. Today being a celebration of our fathers’ fruits of labor, isn’t it just fitting to celebrate a father’s greatest achievement in life, which is his children? To be able to see them stand on their own two feet and walk along a path that they have been preparing for, for the longest time……the path of life. I know we are all proud of my brother and I wouldn’t wish him anything but happiness and prosperity in love and life.


Dear God please be with my brother just as You have been there for him since he came into the world. Keep Him away from all evil, sickness and tragedy. Thank you for giving him what he deserves. 🙂


What’s your love story like?

I could probably tell you a million reasons why I watch Beauty and the Beast (a CW sci-fi drama), but let me tell you one thing that I find really striking about it instead: the parallelisms I see of Cat and Vincent’s (protagonists) relationship to my own relationship with my significant other. Of course B would definitely burst into a irritating fit when he hears this, but whatever, I still find him very similar to Vincent.

The drama pretty much revolves around a cop, Catherine Chandler (not your typical damsel-in-distress), her issues with her family, her past and her family’s past (lol) and of course her wonderful knight in shining armor, the mysterious, Vincent Keller. So how is this like a real life tv adaptation of the good, old Disney favorite? Well, it isn’t. At first I thought it would seem that way, with only a few modifications in characters, plot and setting, but like I said, it didn’t turn out the way I expected it to be. It’s not in any way related to the story of the animated movie nor the Pettyfer-Hudgens version, but a series with a plot and character development of its own. In that case, the title was pretty much the only similarity it has with the beloved children’s film.

I wasn’t really disappointed when I realized this after watching a couple of episodes. In fact, I fell in love with it. It was an instant attraction! I was smitten! You get the idea. So you may wonder, what exactly does the male lead look like? He must look extremely frightening. After all, he wouldn’t be called a beast if he weren’t all hairy with hind legs and with big tusks coming out of his mouth. Okay I have got to stop comparing him to his cartoon counterpart. Kidding aside, he looks incredibly…….NORMAL! Well that is when he is normal, but yeah he turns into a horrifying monster when he gets angry (like the Hulk, but a lot less green and more like a rabid animal with golden eyes). The first time Vincent transformed into a beast, I cannot even look at our TV for a while. He looks like one of the aswangs in our local movies. It took a while before I got used to him transforming like that. I admit, it was traumatic, but the romance helped me get over the horror feel of the show.

I know I still haven’t said enough about the plot. I got carried away, my bad! So I’m gonna make this short. Cat is a cop whose mother was a scientist who worked for a organization/institution called Muirfield which turned normal men into some sort of super soldiers. Vincent a former doctor, enlisted and took part in the program which, like I said, turned them into super soldiers. After a while, the program was terminated and so were all the men who were turned. Vincent survived and eventually, like all super heroes of the modern time, experienced a “side effect” of the process he was put into. His DNA mutated which eventually made him turn into a beast whenever he’s mad or sexually turned on (at least that’s what I observed in the first season). Then Cat’s mother gets killed before her very eyes, gets saved by the beast and gets saved again and again in unfortunate events after. Although Cat’s got some moves (she’s a cop remember?), the thoughtful beast never ceased to save her still (anonymously at first). It’s diabetic, I know! Eventually they fell in love, but since the producers didn’t want to end the darn thing after just one season (especially since it clicked with the suckers for the whole romeo/juliet-you-and-me-against-the-world drama), asked their writers to thicken the plot into a whole goo of a mess and voila! The two end up in an impossibly, tangled web they weaved.

So going back to my own tangled web of a love life, which I find amusingly similar to Cat and Vincent’s because first, like them, B and I love each other very much (duh!). Second, B, like V although very soft-spoken speaks lovingly and sincerely and has that mysterious side to him. Third and the most heartbreaking parallelism, we both want a future together, but cannot surely determine it because of the present circumstances we are in. Sure B doesn’t turned into a wanted freak that’s always on the run from authorities (thank goodness), but every time the show ends (usually at Cat’s apartment’s rooftop, where and when it usually gets mushy), it breaks my heart to see the two still fight for their love despite everything. Maybe that’s why I love this show to bits, because it gives me hope that one day, we are going to get through all the obstacles we are facing now. It makes me feel good despite not having a relationship I dreamed of. It makes me smile knowing that I’m going to get my happy ending too, as long as we both shall fight for a future we want, just like what Cat and Vincent do.

And in the words of Vice Ganda, I want to hope that someday I’m gonna have my “…..happy lang, walang ending

So stay tuned for scenes from our next episode! Chos! Ka-mushy!


A scene from last the episode