No Time

I Just saw the movie “The Fault In Our Stars” and I cried as much as I have when I read the book. Such a crybaby! First of all, kudos to them TFIOS team for being so faithful to the book. The famous lines, their eulogies for each other, the green car they egged, the infected peg of Gus (what I was actually waiting for just because i missed seeing one), they made the movie equally as heartbreaking and meaningful. I’m impressed, but more importantly, I was moved…again.

I started reading the book a couple of months ago and I got to finish it just last week. Like any other movie adaptation I’m a fan of, I would like to read the book first before seeing it on the big screen and this one’s not an exception. Though I didn’t get to see it with anyone special like my family, friends or my forever movie date, B, I find it actually comforting to have seen it alone and at home. I just saw it now and like what I said, I didn’t mind at all that my tears + snot were flash flooding through my face.

Like any other book, movie or story that tackles death or loss of a loved one, it would leave you more or less thankful but not in a selfish way, remorseful but in a sense that it would lead you to do something about the things you feel sorry about. It moves you to be a better person. Easy for me to say, but really, I want the things I realized after seeing the movie and reading the book to linger on in me and change the way I see life from now on just as the Imperial Affliction moved Hazel Grace and Augustus’s lives. (phew!)

Although I don’t know for how long I could tell myself to be good to everyone, to live every day as if it were my last or to treasure each moment with the ones that I love, I would do my best to make my life as meaningful as possible. Bullsh*t, I know, I guess what I’m trying to say is people make books and movies and stories not just to fade into oblivion. I know it’s a reference to Gus’ fear, but it’s true. It’s what happened when I saw the “Passion of the Christ”, “Magnifico” and all the other inspirational tearjerkers. I watched, cried, got inspired, but it ended there and my life moved on. I don’t like for something as tragic to happen in my life before I realize what my purpose in life is or that I need to be at least a better person. I can take it if I’d be forgotten, to get thrown into oblivion. I don’t dream to become a hero. I don’t want to be be someone great, I just want to be someone better.

If being better instead of being great is absurd then forgive me. I just don’t want to make promises I can’t keep, even more because this is a promise that I’m making for and to myself. Like what the title says, there’s no time. Not that I’m saying tomorrow’s the end of the world, but who can tell, right? So there’s nothing wrong by being better instead of being great if it makes a difference in yours and someone else’s life, but if being great is possible, then that would be better.

My brain’s making me say things again. Anyway other than the book and movie, the soundtrack’s also responsible for making me overly sentimental and emotional. Before I saw the movie, I listened to this playlist below for a million times. I listened to it when I blog. I played it while painting my “Okay? Okay.” masterpiece etc. So I was familiar with the songs even before I watched the movie today. I guess this added to the intensity of how I felt during the scenes where these songs were played. Two songs struck me the most unknowingly. The first one is “Let Me In” by Grouplove and “Wait” by M83. Grouplove was introduced to me by my sister a few months back, while I got to know M83 through the movie, Warm Bodies. I love them both or them all. Such talented people.

Here’s LET ME IN (with scenes from the movie):

and the official video of WAIT (which looks apocalyptic to me): BTW, aside from this entry being an inspirational and Carpe Diem-y hence the title, it also is the lyrics to this song below that I thought was sung as “Hosanna”. Crazy! No time = hosanna, sounds the same right? haha! Try listening to it!

P.S. Funny how when I was choosing categories and tags for this entry, I clicked on love, life, loss, death, happiness, inspirational etc. Words were ironically connected to one another. 🙂

Something Beautiful ❤

Have you ever seen something very beautiful that it left you literally with mouth wide open, stunned, dazed, astounded? I think I actually have again, after a long time. I have no words, other than this is really, really beautiful! Just plain beautiful. It was like watching a trailer of an artsy film with a perfect cinematography. Out of all the ones (wedding videos) I’ve seen, this tops everything, including the other one I’ve seen made by Bob Nicolas as well (Sorry Paolo and Sam). Although I didn’t cry like I did when I saw Paolo and Sam’s video, this one just stole my breath away, maybe because I know how Jericho and Kim loved the beach and it was perfectly documented in this video. Plus, I love the beach too so I’m biased, but I didn’t feel this way in all the other beach weddings I’ve seen, mind you.

It probably depends on who’s eyeing the shots or whose eyes we’re seeing through this time. I have to admit, I loved Jason Magbanua first, but Bob Nicolas is different! I’ve never “fangirled” like this ever since I have first seen a JM video! While I was watching the whole thing, I was like “how did he shoot this?” “what camera did he use for this?” “How is that even possible?” or “I wanna do this too!”.

fangirl moment, i just had to, i'm sorry
fangirl moment, i just had to, i’m sorry!

Anyway, so much yakity yak for someone who’s out of words in the first place! Check out the slow motion scenes especially the ones when Echo and Kim were running, spreading colored powder or smoke in the air and the one when Jericho’s arms were outstretched, anticipating a huge wave. ART PORN! Plus the song choice, I have to say is a big factor in making a wedding video. I love the fact that song is so fitting for the scenes or vice versa and I love that they must have chosen this concept and song because these are the occasions in life that you’d never want to end, so you’d either freeze the moments or put them in sloooooooowwww moooootion. 🙂 Kudos to Echo and Kim!

Also, here’s the other video I was talking about:

This one still gives me the chills (in a good way). The intro’s the best and very hair-raising as well. I love the whole fisheyed upside down scene at the beginning, plus the “…in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, for what God has joined together, let no man separate, ” line just gets me every time. plus I love HOPPIPOLLA and Gary V’s speech so you get my point….

survey #3 and last for the day

This one, I just got randomly (so don’t judge). You could get one by clicking on this option on click on the photo for more!


1. in a relationship
2. it would be an insult to my partner if i answer the former. sometimes when i’m really mad at him, i always wish to go back to being single, but it’s hard for me to imagine a life without him. —more cheese please
3. only 1 🙂
4. this would be my only and longest one
5. yes
6. yes, because as they say, it keeps the fire burning and it also helps in keeping intimacy and that certain bond between a couple. – yes expert lang?
7. nope
8. i think that you should never judge anyone, not even those who do it. also, i think that most people have far more complicated and deeper reasons for doing it.
9. none. refer back to question #5
10. my current partner and i broke up last year because of so many things i already forgot about.
11. only one
12. N/A
13. communication, compromise, trust and lots of fun time together
14. yes and still am
15. only when you’re 101% sure about it
16. 22, i think! i’m so pathetic, i know
17. yes
18. only when i become overly dramatic and say things i don’t mean
19. nope
20. yes and hopefully before i turn 30 or 29 haha!

survey #2

1. Are you satisfied with the way your life is right now? – no

2. Do you drink enough water? – i’m trying

3. When was the last time you ate at Burger King? – in April or last month

4. Do you prefer the beach or the mountains? – beach! or it depends on my mood

5. How do you usually feel when you wake up on a morning? – when i don’t have work, i usually feel excited and happy

6. Would you rather take someone on a date, or be taken on a date? – be taken on a date

7. When was the last time you wore high heeled shoes? – last year at my friend’s parents’ renewal of vows

8. Vodka or wine? – not a wine person, so vodka

9. How often do you cry? – only when watching sad movies

10. Ever had a crush on a teacher? – yes

11. Can you wire a plug? – no

12. Do you wear socks to bed? – only when it becomes too cold which is almost never

13. What is currently bugging you? – that i couldn’t find a right job and what’s worse is i’m turning 25 this year!

14. Where were you when you got your first period? – at home

15. Can you change a car tire? – i know how but I surely can’t with my sapless arms and all

16. Have you met more than ten celebrities? – nope

17. Do you sleep naked? – no

18. What was the best music gig you’ve ever attended? – probably mymp’s?

19. Have you ever had sexual feelings for anyone you follow? – on tumblr, yes

20. Do you think Benedict Cumberbatch is hot? – who’s he?

21. Favourite Disney princess? – BELLE 🙂

22. Favourite city? – NYC

23. Can you drive? – yes

24. Cigarettes or alcohol? alcohol

25. Excercise or healthy eating? healthy eating

26. Favourite and least favourite accents? – don’t want to be rude

27. What are you looking forward to? – getting a new job 🙂

28. Did you play Red Rover when you were a child? no, although now that i’ve read about it, i wanna try it!

29. Are you more attracted to men or women? – probably women since I’m only attracted to one man 🙂 cheesy

30. Do you like 1980s fashion? – it’s too over the top for me, but i like it still

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Survey #1

It’s been a while since the last time I answered a survey like this one! It’s soooooooo high school!

I’ve been too hard on myself the past days looking for a job, so to cut me some slack, I’m going to answer one of these! weeeeeeeee!

Without further ado…… here’s my 84 Questions:

  1. Put your music player of choice on shuffle and list the first 10 songs
    • Let Me In – Grouplove
    • Rude – Magic!
    • What You’ve Done To Me – Samantha Jade
    • Ain’t It Fun – Paramore
    • All of Me – John Legend
    • All of the Stars – Ed Sheeran
    • Breakeven – Samantha Jade
    • Let Her Go – Passenger
    • ooooooooooooops! Can I tell you a secret? I only have 8 songs in my new phone!
  2. If you could spend a week anywhere in the world, where would it be and why? Would you take anyone with you? – new york city! and if i could, i would bring my whole family and my boyfriend with me!
  3. What is your preferred writing implement? (eg. Blue pen, pencil, green pen) – love using different colors!
  4. Favourite month and why? – November because it’s my birth month, I love how it sounds when you pronounce it and it’s the month before December, my second favorite month!
  5. Do you have connections to any celebrities (even minor)? List them. – I’d like to think that I do, but I don’t!
  6. Name 3 items you could pick up from where you are. – towel, cheetos, cell phone
  7. What brand logo is closest to you currently? – by proximity: american eagle outfitters, by heart: Canon
  8. Do you ever play board games or other non-computer games? Got any favourites? Yes, probably this pen and paper game someone invented when we were in high school and “bato, bato pick” – both of which I’ve recently played against 2 kids from my last job 🙂
  9. A musical artist you love that isn’t well known – The Format and Freelance Whales – they’re somehow well known though
  10. A musical artist you love that is well known – Taylor Swift 🙂 darn choice i know
  11. What is your desktop background currently? 11 different owls sitting on a tree branch wearing a single scarf
  12. Last person you talked to, and through what you talked to them – my B over the phone
  13. First colour name you can think of that isn’t in the rainbow – coral
  14. What timekeeping devices are in the room you are currently in? – cell phone, clock, watches and an hourglass!!!
  15. What kind of headphones do you use? – the one with a microphone from cd-r-king haha!
  16. What musical artists have you seen perform live? – not much: mymp, parokya ni edgar, arnel pineda
  17. Does virginity matter to you? – 101%
  18. What gaming consoles do you or your family own? – xbox 360
  19. What pets do you have? What are their names? – shih tzu named Charlie, 2 dogs with no particular breed named Cutie and Poochie
  20. What’s the best job you’ve ever had? – none! just kidding! probably out of the two I had, being a nurse 🙂
  21. What’s the worst job you’ve ever had? – hmmm none!
  22. What magazines do you read, if any? – teen vogue, lots of local and international, fashion and entertainment mags, men’s magazines, katha magazine and lots of artsy magazines on 🙂
  23. Inspiration behind your URL? – my name 🙂
  24. Inspiration behind your blog title? – same as above
  25. Favourite item of clothing? – kimono cardigan
  26. Are you friends with any exes? – N/A
  27. Name at least one book you loved as a child. The Twelfth Angel and Archie Comics (it’s still a book)
  28. What’s your native language? If that language has distinct regional variations, which variation? (eg. AU English, US English) – just FILIPINO
  29. What email service do you use? – yahoo and gmail
  30. Is there anything hanging on the walls of the room you are currently in? – my paintings, a pink mirror and a clock
  31. What’s your favourite number, and why? 8 because it looks like an infinity symbol and it’s my birthdate minus the digit 1
  32. Earliest moment in your life you can remember? – SEPANX moment during my first day in preschool when I was crying really hard and loud with both arms wrapped tightly around my mother’s waist. Everyone was literally trying to peel me off my mother that traumatic day 🙂
  33. What did you have for dinner yesterday? leftover lunch (father’s day and bro’s despedida lunch)
  34. How often do you brush your teeth? – twice to thrice a day – eewwiiieee
  35. What’s your favourite candy/chocolate? – ferrero rocher and sour candies
  36. Have you had other blogs on Tumblr? Do you have any other blogs currently? – none and yes
  37. If you were suddenly really hungry, what would you choose to eat? – cake 🙂
  38. What fandoms would you consider yourself a part of? hmmm probably BATB
  39. If you could study anything, what would it be? – photography, creative writing and filmmaking
  40. Do you use anything on your lips? (eg. Chapstick, gloss, balm, lipstick) – yes
  41. How would you describe your sense of humour? – it comes and goes
  42. What things annoy you more than anything else? – hot weather
  43. What kind of position are you in at the moment? – lying on my bed with my laptop in between my tummy and bent leg
  44. Do you wear much jewellery? – lots of non-expensive ones
  45. Who is the leader of your country, currently? Any other levels of government with leaders? (State, region, province, county, district, municipality, etc) – President Aquino, Governor Ynares, Mayor Nieto
  46. Last 3 blogs on your dashboard, not including any of your own – wheresmykaleidoscope, falling-deeperinlove and fotosdebuenosaires
  47. What do you carry your money in? in a coin purse or sometimes in my card case
  48. Do you enjoy driving? Why or why not? – no just because i’m always too stiff and nervous and driving is hard in the Philippines (too many crowded and not to mention narrow streets, lots of motorcycles and selfless drivers around)
  49. Longest drive you have ever been on? – just around a still empty subdivision
  50. Furthest away from home you have ever been? – Bohol
  51. How many times have you moved house? – just once
  52. What is on the floor of the room you’re currently in, not including furniture? – lots of bags
  53. How many devices do you own which can access the internet? – 2
  54. Is there is anything that is guaranteed to always make you happy? – Sundays (family days) and dates with my boyfriend
  55. Is there anything that always makes you sad? – whenever B and I part ways
  56. What programs do you currently have open? – Viber and Google Chrome
  57. What do you associate the colour red with? – blood and sex
  58. Last strong smell you can remember smelling? – our dog, Charlie
  59. Last healthy thing you ate? – cultured milk
  60. Do you drink tea or coffee, and how much per day? – yes and yes, just when I need to stay awake and whenever I want to relax respectively.
  61. What do you associate the colour blue with? – the sea/water
  62. How long is the closest ruler you can find? – 6 inches
  63. What colour pants/skirt/etc are you currently wearing? – violet
  64. When was the last time you drank water? – just an hour ago, i think!
  65. How often do you clear your browser history? – not much these days
  66. Do you believe nude photos can be artistic, rather than erotic? – definitely
  67. Ever written fanfiction for anything? – nope
  68. Last formal event you attended – my friend’s parents’ renewal of vows
  69. If you had to move your birthday to another date, which one would you choose and why? probably January 1st
  70. Would you prefer to be at a beach or in the countryside? – beach definitely!
  71. Roughly how many people live in your town? hmm probably 60,000?
  72. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? yes! my high school batchmate
  73. Favourite place to shop? Can be a certain store or a place where there are multiple stores – national bookstore and booksale, divisoria, department stores, greenhills, forever 21 (window shop haha)
  74. Do you have a smartphone? What kind? If you don’t, do you want one?yes. Samsung Android phone.
  75. What is your least favourite colour, and why? – orange because it doesn’t look good on me 🙂
  76. How do you spell grey/gray? – gray
  77. Go to your dashboard and describe the image shown in the radar section (below the “Find blogs” link) – it’s a pilot’s selfie while aboard an overturned aircraft showing a couple more stunt pilots and the sea behind him
  78. What difference is there between how many followers you have, and the number of blogs you follow? – a huuuuuuge difference! I always follow a million people
  79. How many posts do you have? – 3,596
  80. How many posts have you liked? 803
  81. Do you post mainly reblogs, or your own content? i do reblog every once in a while
  82. Do you track any tags? – most of the time
  83. What time is it currently? – 8:15 am, although I started this before midnight last night
  84. Is there anything you should be doing right now? – updating my resume

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