Feeling Productive

A week and 2 days ago, I submitted my first writing assignment for this website called ESSAYS.PH. I almost didn’t make it to the deadline, but luckily, with a whole lot of praying on the side, I did! I think I was only a minute away from the deadline when I clicked on the submit/upload button. I was on the verge of crying because at the back of my mind, I was thinking, “I couldn’t have stayed all night for nothing” plus I really worked hard on those lists I wrote. Then a week after, here I am on the top 100 writers list already, all thanks to staying up the whole night last Saturday!

essays rank

Boy I’m glad I took the leap. Right after I saw the topics for that particular assignment and not thinking twice, I clicked on the CLAIM button because it was an opportunity I couldn’t let pass! I knew I could do it and I couldn’t forgive myself if I let someone else do it. I said I didn’t think twice (because normally I would), and it was the weekend, so most people were probably just at home so chances are it might have easily been someone else’s.

Looking back, I should really not get an assignment on weekends since I go to church and to other places with my family on Sundays. Also, assignments are usually due 24 hours after claiming them, so it would seem like you lose a big amount of time that should’ve been spent on writing instead. Not that I’m saying that time spent with the family is a waste of time. You simply do not work on weekends just like what it says in the Bible! 🙂 haha!

Anyway, I’m so happy that I got the news today. I was kind of really feeling hopeless after a week of daily checking my online “workdesk”. I think it was checked at around 1 in the morning today (so thanks to whoever checked it), plus I didn’t have to revise anything so that’s another thing I was thankful for. I was actually more worried about failing to check for any updates regarding my assignment since the submition of the revisions itself had a deadline too.

So there you have it, my very first paid writing job 🙂 I should really do this more often and I should learn to write about even the not so interesting stuff.

Something Beautiful (not again)

This song is another one from the TFIOS soundtrack, another beautiful one at that (is there a song in there that’s not good at all?). Anyway, I’m putting it here so I could go back to it in a few years time. It’s got that same “feel good” vibe I felt when I saw BAD DAY by Daniel Powter a few years ago. It made me smile. That’s another thing that made it beautiful. It simply made me smile. Like the video itself, it might seem that beyond what our senses perceive lies a much profound reason to appreciate what our senses cannot. To see beauty in everything, even in the least possible places and people in this world.

P.S. Don’t you think the hero in the video looks cute?

No Time

I Just saw the movie “The Fault In Our Stars” and I cried as much as I have when I read the book. Such a crybaby! First of all, kudos to them TFIOS team for being so faithful to the book. The famous lines, their eulogies for each other, the green car they egged, the infected peg of Gus (what I was actually waiting for just because i missed seeing one), they made the movie equally as heartbreaking and meaningful. I’m impressed, but more importantly, I was moved…again.

I started reading the book a couple of months ago and I got to finish it just last week. Like any other movie adaptation I’m a fan of, I would like to read the book first before seeing it on the big screen and this one’s not an exception. Though I didn’t get to see it with anyone special like my family, friends or my forever movie date, B, I find it actually comforting to have seen it alone and at home. I just saw it now and like what I said, I didn’t mind at all that my tears + snot were flash flooding through my face.

Like any other book, movie or story that tackles death or loss of a loved one, it would leave you more or less thankful but not in a selfish way, remorseful but in a sense that it would lead you to do something about the things you feel sorry about. It moves you to be a better person. Easy for me to say, but really, I want the things I realized after seeing the movie and reading the book to linger on in me and change the way I see life from now on just as the Imperial Affliction moved Hazel Grace and Augustus’s lives. (phew!)

Although I don’t know for how long I could tell myself to be good to everyone, to live every day as if it were my last or to treasure each moment with the ones that I love, I would do my best to make my life as meaningful as possible. Bullsh*t, I know, I guess what I’m trying to say is people make books and movies and stories not just to fade into oblivion. I know it’s a reference to Gus’ fear, but it’s true. It’s what happened when I saw the “Passion of the Christ”, “Magnifico” and all the other inspirational tearjerkers. I watched, cried, got inspired, but it ended there and my life moved on. I don’t like for something as tragic to happen in my life before I realize what my purpose in life is or that I need to be at least a better person. I can take it if I’d be forgotten, to get thrown into oblivion. I don’t dream to become a hero. I don’t want to be be someone great, I just want to be someone better.

If being better instead of being great is absurd then forgive me. I just don’t want to make promises I can’t keep, even more because this is a promise that I’m making for and to myself. Like what the title says, there’s no time. Not that I’m saying tomorrow’s the end of the world, but who can tell, right? So there’s nothing wrong by being better instead of being great if it makes a difference in yours and someone else’s life, but if being great is possible, then that would be better.

My brain’s making me say things again. Anyway other than the book and movie, the soundtrack’s also responsible for making me overly sentimental and emotional. Before I saw the movie, I listened to this playlist below for a million times. I listened to it when I blog. I played it while painting my “Okay? Okay.” masterpiece etc. So I was familiar with the songs even before I watched the movie today. I guess this added to the intensity of how I felt during the scenes where these songs were played. Two songs struck me the most unknowingly. The first one is “Let Me In” by Grouplove and “Wait” by M83. Grouplove was introduced to me by my sister a few months back, while I got to know M83 through the movie, Warm Bodies. I love them both or them all. Such talented people.

Here’s LET ME IN (with scenes from the movie):

and the official video of WAIT (which looks apocalyptic to me): BTW, aside from this entry being an inspirational and Carpe Diem-y hence the title, it also is the lyrics to this song below that I thought was sung as “Hosanna”. Crazy! No time = hosanna, sounds the same right? haha! Try listening to it!

P.S. Funny how when I was choosing categories and tags for this entry, I clicked on love, life, loss, death, happiness, inspirational etc. Words were ironically connected to one another. 🙂

Something Beautiful ❤

Have you ever seen something very beautiful that it left you literally with mouth wide open, stunned, dazed, astounded? I think I actually have again, after a long time. I have no words, other than this is really, really beautiful! Just plain beautiful. It was like watching a trailer of an artsy film with a perfect cinematography. Out of all the ones (wedding videos) I’ve seen, this tops everything, including the other one I’ve seen made by Bob Nicolas as well (Sorry Paolo and Sam). Although I didn’t cry like I did when I saw Paolo and Sam’s video, this one just stole my breath away, maybe because I know how Jericho and Kim loved the beach and it was perfectly documented in this video. Plus, I love the beach too so I’m biased, but I didn’t feel this way in all the other beach weddings I’ve seen, mind you.

It probably depends on who’s eyeing the shots or whose eyes we’re seeing through this time. I have to admit, I loved Jason Magbanua first, but Bob Nicolas is different! I’ve never “fangirled” like this ever since I have first seen a JM video! While I was watching the whole thing, I was like “how did he shoot this?” “what camera did he use for this?” “How is that even possible?” or “I wanna do this too!”.

fangirl moment, i just had to, i'm sorry
fangirl moment, i just had to, i’m sorry!

Anyway, so much yakity yak for someone who’s out of words in the first place! Check out the slow motion scenes especially the ones when Echo and Kim were running, spreading colored powder or smoke in the air and the one when Jericho’s arms were outstretched, anticipating a huge wave. ART PORN! Plus the song choice, I have to say is a big factor in making a wedding video. I love the fact that song is so fitting for the scenes or vice versa and I love that they must have chosen this concept and song because these are the occasions in life that you’d never want to end, so you’d either freeze the moments or put them in sloooooooowwww moooootion. 🙂 Kudos to Echo and Kim!

Also, here’s the other video I was talking about:

This one still gives me the chills (in a good way). The intro’s the best and very hair-raising as well. I love the whole fisheyed upside down scene at the beginning, plus the “…in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, for what God has joined together, let no man separate, ” line just gets me every time. plus I love HOPPIPOLLA and Gary V’s speech so you get my point….