Letting Go

I woke up with slightly wet eyes in the middle of night, last night with the TV on. I had a nightmare I wish I could’ve forgotten once I woke up just like all of my other dreams. It was almost too real until I figured I was still in my bed and not with the people I’m with in that horrible dream.

Then, I realized it was one of my favorite shows that was on then. It was the last few scenes before the show ended but I was instantly glued since it was also the climactic part. The criminal was supposed to be once and for all, arrested when a sudden blast of a huge bullet went through the good guy who was holding a gun against the criminal in front of him. The criminal wasn’t spared by the bullet and died on the spot, but the good guy, whom I suppose was the protagonist’s brother or really close friend, had a dramatic death. Β The episode ended with a montage of scenes in slow motion: the protagonist running towards his brother/friend, the other agents scouring the buildings surrounding them for the suspect, then the protagonist hugging his girlfriend who’s also an agent freed after being imprisoned and finally, the protagonist telling his mom the bad news.

What I saw was short but it was moving and as much as I wanted to have woken up earlier, it was something I thank God I saw because if it wasn’t for it, I wouldn’t have realized something new.

OKAY! As I type this, I switch channels and voila, BURN NOTICE is on again and it’s the episode after the one I just typed up there. AWESOME.

Anyway, going back to my point, I realized that life’s too short (not this one) for us to hold back and to hold on to things we don’t need anymore.

Just as I let go of my long, frizzy hair, I realized I need to let go of the bad things I experienced in the past, of the regrets that I kept in my head, of the idea that I keep convincing myself with, of the grudges and bitterness that I hold against others and of the people who never appreciated the things I did for them.

I am not perfect and I may not be the best person for you to be friends with, but once I become one, I’ll always be loyal to you. I may not be literally there for you when you need me, but I’ll try to help you in the best way I can. It’s just sad that sooner or later, you’ll realize that the people you trusted and loved the most will treat you like you never meant anything to them at all.

Since it’s Holy Week and I don’t want to fill my heart with anger, I’ll make sure to let go of the things I don’t want to keep in my life anymore, not to run away from them but to learn a lesson and move forward to a better life.

In conclusion to all this, I still want to thank God as always for helping me see things clearly and for never letting go of my hand especially in times like these.

I still have my family, other friends, boyfriend and most importantly, God to keep me company until the end of time. πŸ™‚

Always with a cheerful (ows? kita nga sa pic!) and sincere heart, planetmallows! πŸ™‚ Have a great day/night! πŸ˜›