I think it’s about time to finally write something decent about my sister. After all, she’s been my silent confidante since the beginning of time, way before the dinosaurs walked the earth. lol.
In a month’s time, she will be getting married. I know that it will happen for her eventually, but it shouldn’t be this fast, right? To me, we are still in high school and all our problems still revolve around quizzes and asking our parents if we could go to the mall with our friends. Why is it suddenly all about growing up and leaving the nest?
I guess I’m kinda feeling needy because even though we have never been the kind of sisters who spill everything to each other, we’ve always been close in a way that we know we would always have each other’s back no matter what. I always counted on that and for good reason.
I remember back in grade school, I would be so protective of her during school fairs for fear of her being caught and detained in the jail booth. lol. She would be this crazy silent kid back then and we’d always be together waiting for papa to pick us up after school. I didn’t know what was going on in her head, but her presence gave me a sense of comfort after a long day in school. That moment after school was somehow what I looked forward to the most. I was probably suffering from anxiety at such an early age, but I’m glad I knew that despite being worlds apart in our huge school, I had someone I can be with if something came up.
We’ve probably never talked about this a lot anymore, but growing up, she would also be the one with the highest grades in school. She was consistently studious up until college. She never failed in anything and our parents never had any problems with her in school. She never got into any trouble and she was always the goody two shoes in the family.
In high school, I assume that she finally came out of her shell and became more aware of her identity and what she wants in life. She then met her friends who’ll soon also become her bridesmaids at her wedding. She became more outgoing and outspoken. She transformed into the exact opposite of who she was as a kid. It was a coming of age moment that bloomed into a go-getter, firm decision maker, girl boss that she is today, and I look up to her for that.
She learned to go places, to go after what she wants, to explore herself more. She made decisions unfazed even by the constant, indirect nagging of mama. She was an epitome of a woman who knows what she wants and gets it.
This is why I often say that she is the ate (older sister) I never was. At times, I’d go to her for advice. More often than not, she would be the planner of our family travels. She knows how to adult more than I do. She’s good with money. She’s scary like mama, whom she often clashes with too. I guess she’s the only one in the family that mama is secretly scared of too. She [mama] cannot sway her easily like she does with me. And lastly, she is the boss of her own life. I couldn’t be more envious of her.
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